TW psychopaths. i really need help i’m freaking out so much. i think i’m quite an empathetic person. and i think i might be a masochist (someone who likes getting hurt / feeling pain). i don’t really mind this because at the end of the day it’s me who would suffer not anyone else. but then i was googling and googling and fell into a trap about sadistic people. what if i hurt people so i can empathise with their pain and feel good? because i like feeling pain? i’m usually quite sensitive to pain so i’m worried it could make be sadistic if i felt someone’s else’s pain. because i would enjoy as i like feeling pain. there have been times where i’ve felt weirdly stimulated by terrible / evil situations (i hoped it was just adrenaline and anxiety). and i’m so scared i’m a psychopath. i feel sick to my stomach right now with anxiety. like what if i’m sadistic??? am what if i really am a psychopath??!!! please someone help me i’m so scared.

thank you. it’s just scary because sadists aren’t *necessarily* psychopaths but they like seeing people in pain. but they can be empathic? it’s just super twisted and scary. and the fact that i’ve felt weirdly excited by terrible things like i said before makes me nervous now.

@garden We are humans, we sin and we mess up. You are not a sadist, sadists like being sadists, you don’t! What you are dealing with is OCD urges, I know the feeling. I get a lot of sexual and prideful ones but those things do not define me and neither should it define you. What should define you is love. Love God and others and stay strong. I love you :)

@ttheafterprty thank you 💚 what are ocd urges? could that be the weird feelings i feel during bad situations?

@garden Yes, it is those weird feelings. It’s completely normal for OCD people! It happens to me a lot but once you recognize these things you’ll get way better!

@ttheafterprty thank you. so could that feeling of strange excitement actually be ocd?

@garden Yes! It is!

thank you. it’s just hard because (TW) i’ve gathered that sadists aren’t necessarily bad people? like they can be extremely empathetic, it’s just they enjoy the pain of others. and it’s scary because this has created a really grey area for me and im worried im a sadist

@garden I know. OCD feeds off of grey areas. It's like a feast to it. This will pass. I wouldn't Google anymore bc that will only provide further grey area.

@TiredMindOverMatter yeah you’re right. thank you

@garden We are here for you. You aren't alone.

@TiredMindOverMatter thank you 💜 i haven’t been this anxious in months

yes exactly