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Psychopaths do not care if they are Psychopaths. Do not ruminate about it, push forward through the uncertainty and keep going. God loves you :)
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thank you. it’s just scary because sadists aren’t *necessarily* psychopaths but they like seeing people in pain. but they can be empathic? it’s just super twisted and scary. and the fact that i’ve felt weirdly excited by terrible things like i said before makes me nervous now.
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@garden We are humans, we sin and we mess up. You are not a sadist, sadists like being sadists, you don’t! What you are dealing with is OCD urges, I know the feeling. I get a lot of sexual and prideful ones but those things do not define me and neither should it define you. What should define you is love. Love God and others and stay strong. I love you :)
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@ttheafterprty thank you 💚 what are ocd urges? could that be the weird feelings i feel during bad situations?
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@garden Yes, it is those weird feelings. It’s completely normal for OCD people! It happens to me a lot but once you recognize these things you’ll get way better!
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@ttheafterprty thank you. so could that feeling of strange excitement actually be ocd?
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@garden Yes! It is!
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You can get through this! Push through this, it will pass, no matter how scary it sounds
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This is just your OCD. You fed into your obsession by googling (compulsion), which just reinforced your fear. You can't "figure out or solve this mystery" but your OCD is desperately trying to. Trust who you are as a person and your values. You know who you are. You are a good person who wouldn't hurt anyone.
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thank you. it’s just hard because (TW) i’ve gathered that sadists aren’t necessarily bad people? like they can be extremely empathetic, it’s just they enjoy the pain of others. and it’s scary because this has created a really grey area for me and im worried im a sadist
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@garden I know. OCD feeds off of grey areas. It's like a feast to it. This will pass. I wouldn't Google anymore bc that will only provide further grey area.
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@TiredMindOverMatter yeah you’re right. thank you
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@garden We are here for you. You aren't alone.
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@TiredMindOverMatter thank you 💜 i haven’t been this anxious in months
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yes exactly
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don’t know if you are on here, but i have the same thing
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