why and how am i able to sit now with no thoughts and no anxiety? is this possible with ocd or is it proof i don't have ocd???

but i don't feel much anxious about this either💀

@Nour04 Hm. It might be a break, then. That happened to me for about a month in January.

@OCDumb >:( like i do feel anxious but not as anxious. i am out at the park. why am i not checking? is it real?

@Nour04 To me, it sounds like you might be sorta anxious- considering you’ve been posting quite a bit lately and are asking about it now. Wondering why you aren’t checking is, in fact, a form of checking. While you might not think you’re very anxious, if you are performing compulsions like checking and rumination, it is likely OCD related. Does that make sense?

@OCDumb >:( My advice would be to try and enjoy the park. Be mindful. Almost like a meditation. Take in your surroundings and simply be present.

@OCDumb >:( yes but i don't even feel like this is ocd anymore. i feel like my fears are actually true. it's been feeling so true lately and like i actually like it and want it

@Nour04 I know how that be. SO-OCD is a jerk. Do NOT give it the time of day. Maybe you are gay. Maybe you aren’t. While it definitely feels like the end of the world, try to just…. Let the thoughts be. Elvis Gomes put it best in his song on OCD- “You have to lose the battle in order to win the war.” Let the thoughts come, and you’ll get better.

@OCDumb >:( The best think you can do for yourself is not acknowledge your worry. Let the thoughts come. I know it’s hard, but it will do wonders.

@OCDumb >:( thank you so much. today is especially hard because it marks 6 months since the death of my uncle and it still hurts like it's fresh. i am trying to stay distracted from the thoughts and that's what i always do but it comes back as "well this is denial because it's not bothering you"

@Nour04 Oh no…. I’m so sorry for your loss. I can assure you that this DOES get better. I’m about your age, too (15) so I know what it’s like to be a teen struggling with this. I promise that things will be okay.

@OCDumb >:( it feels like i am struggling to accept my sexuality and just having a sexuality crisis and this isn't ocd you know? i really feel gay in denial. does it ever feel this real for you???

@Nour04 It definitely has in the past. It’s been much better since I went on my medication, but even now it feels like I’m in denial. The hardest part of OCD is 100% how convincing it is.

@OCDumb >:( i am so convinced i am gay in denial. even when i say i am straight it feels like a lie. feels like i am struggling to accept my sexuality

@Nour04 Yuppppp. Been there. It’s gotten to the point where it’s hard to even envision myself with a boyfriend, because I’ve felt like I’m questioning for so long. It just be that way. :(

@OCDumb >:( it's so convincing

@Nour04 It really is. :(