Hey. So I am worried that what if I don’t actually have OCD and I’m actually a horrible person. This is because I have not yet been diagnosed by a doctor. HOWEVER I have struggled with ocd since I was little. Pretty much every type and it’s debilitating. I’m young so it’s very hard to talk to my parents about getting diagnosed. However everyone knows I struggle with ocd. It runs in my family and I have just about every type. I almost had to get out on medication when I was 7 years old because of how debilitating my intrusive thoughts were. However they improved and so I never got around to the doctor. Now after that I always suffered from checking OCD, perfectionism, and lots of other subtypes. then around 7th grade I have a HORRIBLE episode as I have developed HOCD, some POCD and well pretty much every other subtype. I couldn’t eat. I couldn’t sleep. Every waking minute was hell and I couldn’t do anything about it. This improved as it was a few years ago but not much. At least I can eat and somewhat be ok. however I still never got a diagnosis. I guess all I want to know is if I’m still valid? That this is real? Just because I didn’t get a diagnoses or on meds or in therapy (even though I desperately need to because it’s ruining my life.) I just want to know I’m not a horrible person for these awful thoughts

Anonymous

289d ago

Hi. I have harm ocd also and perfectionism ocd. I have learned in therapy that if you have to question if you’re a horrible person or you say what if, or what if I could do this or even feel an urge you could, it’s definitely OCD. My OCD makes me feel horrible and the anxiety is unbearable at times but I am learning to recognize the OCD thought and sit with it without engaging more about the thing. You can’t figure it out, it’s not a real logical thing, it’s OCD , I have same thing and we have to practice not engaging. I am not a therapist but sounds to me that there is nothing else here but OCD. Why don’t you go to the community online groups if you can’t see a therapist. That will help you and you can ask a trained therapist questions . Hope this helps, you can do it! You are not alone 😘😘

.recovering.

289d ago

Thank you so much!! I think I’m going to work up the courage to talk to my parents about getting help. Thank you this really helped.

Anonymous

289d ago

Yay!!! It’s the bravest best decision to tell them. OCD is a tremendous community, and a therapist will help you so, so much! If you feel like writing back about how it goes , I’m here!🌟