Hey. So I am worried that what if I don’t actually have OCD and I’m actually a horrible person. This is because I have not yet been diagnosed by a doctor. HOWEVER I have struggled with ocd since I was little. Pretty much every type and it’s debilitating. I’m young so it’s very hard to talk to my parents about getting diagnosed. However everyone knows I struggle with ocd. It runs in my family and I have just about every type. I almost had to get out on medication when I was 7 years old because of how debilitating my intrusive thoughts were. However they improved and so I never got around to the doctor. Now after that I always suffered from checking OCD, perfectionism, and lots of other subtypes. then around 7th grade I have a HORRIBLE episode as I have developed HOCD, some POCD and well pretty much every other subtype. I couldn’t eat. I couldn’t sleep. Every waking minute was hell and I couldn’t do anything about it. This improved as it was a few years ago but not much. At least I can eat and somewhat be ok. however I still never got a diagnosis. I guess all I want to know is if I’m still valid? That this is real? Just because I didn’t get a diagnoses or on meds or in therapy (even though I desperately need to because it’s ruining my life.) I just want to know I’m not a horrible person for these awful thoughts

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

Hi. I have harm ocd also and perfectionism ocd. I have learned in therapy that if you have to question if you’re a horrible person or you say what if, or what if I could do this or even feel an urge you could, it’s definitely OCD. My OCD makes me feel horrible and the anxiety is unbearable at times but I am learning to recognize the OCD thought and sit with it without engaging more about the thing. You can’t figure it out, it’s not a real logical thing, it’s OCD , I have same thing and we have to practice not engaging. I am not a therapist but sounds to me that there is nothing else here but OCD. Why don’t you go to the community online groups if you can’t see a therapist. That will help you and you can ask a trained therapist questions . Hope this helps, you can do it! You are not alone 😘😘

.recovering.

Date posted: 4y

Thank you so much!! I think I’m going to work up the courage to talk to my parents about getting help. Thank you this really helped.

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

Yay!!! It’s the bravest best decision to tell them. OCD is a tremendous community, and a therapist will help you so, so much! If you feel like writing back about how it goes , I’m here!🌟

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