Hi. I have harm ocd also and perfectionism ocd. I have learned in therapy that if you have to question if you’re a horrible person or you say what if, or what if I could do this or even feel an urge you could, it’s definitely OCD. My OCD makes me feel horrible and the anxiety is unbearable at times but I am learning to recognize the OCD thought and sit with it without engaging more about the thing. You can’t figure it out, it’s not a real logical thing, it’s OCD , I have same thing and we have to practice not engaging. I am not a therapist but sounds to me that there is nothing else here but OCD. Why don’t you go to the community online groups if you can’t see a therapist. That will help you and you can ask a trained therapist questions . Hope this helps, you can do it! You are not alone 😘😘
Thank you so much!! I think I’m going to work up the courage to talk to my parents about getting help. Thank you this really helped.
Yay!!! It’s the bravest best decision to tell them. OCD is a tremendous community, and a therapist will help you so, so much! If you feel like writing back about how it goes , I’m here!🌟