I have the feeling that when my hocd started I was very anxious, more than now, but I had still some clarity and I knew who I am and now after year of Googling, reading about comphet, sexual fluidity etc I really don't know anything. Every day is worse than better and every day I am less straight. I thought that with time it will be better. I am really confused and depressed. I wish I would never read it. Sometimes it's better not to know... Can someone relate?