I started therapy yesterday. I cannot have a therapy by nocd, cuz I live in Germany. I have found someone in Poland. I am Polish. He is cbt and erp specialist. He knows ocd and also hocd. He is also sexual therapist. The therapy was ok. He was a bit serious. I think I would feel better to talk with woman, but i could not find one. There are everywhere long waiting lists.
We will work on my anxiety and ocd. But how he can know I am not really lesbian? He didn't ask me if I was ever attracted to same sex. Nothing.
I am also scared to tell him about my past that I have watched lesbian porn. I am scared if I tell him he tell me I am lesbian. But I have to tell him everything cuz I have to make erp regarding my triggers. This is the only way to recover.