why am i not thinking about it now???? is it not ocd?? shouldn't i be worried? this really feels like denial

When you look deep down and it feels wrong then its OCD... but if you secretly like it and the anxiety comes from what you think people will say then its denial

WHY AM I NOT WORRIED NOR FREAKING OUT PROPERLY?? I SAW SOMETHING TRIGGERING I SHOULD BE!!!

🎵Somebody’s having a backdoor spike🎵 In a lot of your recent posts, I’ve noticed you’ve been anxious about a lack of anxiety. This is definitely a backdoor spike. Just keep calm, and remember how you coped with the anxiety before. You got this!!!

I feel the same way, sometimes I don’t feel that worried about certain thoughts or even the idea of being a bad person and it makes me feel like I don’t have OCD and I am just a bad person, so I know how you feel you’re not alone

Thus happens to me as well-feeling stressed out from the lack of stress. My therapist tells me to feed into the negative thoughts and that helps me sometimes. For me-when I intrusive thoughts that tell me my unclean hands may lead to me dying I’ll say something like “i AM going to die because my hands are unclean.” Its a way of rewiring your brain to no be afraid of the intrusive thought anymore. Of course this could definitely be too stressful for some!