showers have become dreadful. each time i shower i have a breakdown and cry and the thoughts feel real and it feels like i am crying because i am in denial

Sorry you’re feeling this way ❤️. Have you tried listening to a meditation app in the shower?

i tried everything. my ocd is way worse during the night and when i take showers because i am all alone and not distracted. going to bed has become a fear of mine as i lay awake until 4 am on my phone trying to dial down the sound of my thoughts

does it ever feel like you genuinely want it and like it with so-ocd????

I completely understand, OCD is really rough. Yes, it can.

Are you seeing a therapist?

no not yet :(

@Nour04 You really should. This app is nice for support but it will never be enough to get better. It’s also full of reassurance unfortunately, which is the last thing you need

@Drvmstick Couldn’t have said it better myself. Therapy and medication will do WONDERS for you. Nour04, I know what it’s like to be in your shoes. I was that way in March. Fortunately I was seeing a therapist already and I was able to get somewhat back on track with my life. Now I only have minor episodes and occasional relapses. Please find a therapist. 💛

@OCDumb >:( but it doesn't feel like ocd!!! i am sure i am bi in denial!!

@Nour04 I know how it is :( Therapy is still a good option.

@Nour04 You're feeling this because this generation loves to label everything. I am not saying it's bad but it so hard for us so-ocd fighters to deal with it. Maybe you are maybe you're not... you're never gonna know. Girls are pretty so what? Even if you're in denial so what? What if you're actually not? What if you're actually straight? These questions will never stop. OCD wants you to keep in this cycle and it is getting successful.

@Nour04 Also, I go to attend my classes offline. I remember I was so anxious last time and my brain said you like this girl who was sitting just infront of me. And today it's a lot better. So it does get better. Gradually. I too have my awful days but it decreases eventually. Everything will be alright. Trust me. Just keep calm. Try.