Do any of you ruminate about the past. About past thoughts to see if you enjoyed the thoughts, I mean years back, I’ve had these horrible thoughts for so long I just don’t know what to think, also checking sexual thoughts to see if I like them, it’s torture,

Yes I do so often- it’s a horrible habit of mine.

i’ve done weird things in the past and i didn’t think too much of it cause i was super young but i keep thinking of it as a way to label me as a pedophile fock 😁

I had this about a year ago. What helped me was to realize that just checking for arousal actually creates a “groinal response.” So any mental attention you give to your groin area literally creates a feeling! And just having anxiety about that can further increase blood flow to create a fake sense of arousal. It’s crazy but true and keeps us stuck in this cycle of checking and feeling like “oh shit I’m aroused.” It’s all fake. NOCD and other sites have great articles on groinal responses with ocd you can check out!