so i was watching the new "what if..." episode called "what if captain Carter were the first avenger". she's basically the female British version of captain America. i have a HUGE crush on captain America (Chris Evans) so there's a scene where she hands the tesseract and turns away telling Howard Stark that she trusts he knows what to do with it. the point is, at that moment i said "HOT!" and i don't know whether i said it to peggy or howard. i am trying to go back, i have watched the scene again and can't make up whether i ssaid it to her or him. i think i said it to her and it's making me uneasy :(

and then i tell myself it doesn't matter, and then i say it does and then again i hit myself for "faking" the fact that it matters to "prove" i have ocd. it's so funny😂😂😂i feel like i have to post to "prove" i have ocd

@Nour04 Yeah so stop. Who are you proving anything to? Proving that you want to get worse instead of better?

@Nour04 It does matter! So many of us are trying to help you and you’re completely disregarding it

@Justmesadly no i mean it doesn't matter who i said was hot

@Justmesadly I agree. I too am very active since few days but I try my best to resist compulsions and just post my heart out without expecting any reassurance. But I have been noticing she's only and only doing compulsions. Girl, why are you feeding your OCD? You're way strong. Just stay away from this app. You're simply making your OCD worse. All of us are trying to keep you in uncertainty. It's a never ending cycle trust me, it's only and only gonna get worse.

@lolocd You can’t help those that don’t want to help themselves! You have to want to get better for yourself in order to get better

@Nour04 I feel your posts sm but clearly your OCD is succeeding in keeping you in that vicious cycle. If it can come up with things as severe as false attraction and groinal responses, thoughts are a mere thing. All you need is to uninstall this app right away and resist any compulsion you do. I too will uninstall it.

@Justmesadly Ikr, that's sad. Ik what she's going through but that's what OCD wants her to go through. She gotta resist all of this to get better. :(

@lolocd We all know what she’s going through because every person on this app has ocd. And most of us have been there at some point. Just because I’m in recovery now doesn’t mean I don’t understand. If I didn’t understand I wouldn’t be trying to help!

@Justmesadly Omggggggg sorry if I sounded to look down upon you. NO NO. I just wanted to say how I feel for her. Just that. Absolutely all of us including you feel exactly what she's doing through because we are/were here in that situation. I am extremely sorry. :(

@lolocd You’re good! I’m not hurt or upset at all!