This is going to get personal but I wanted other opinions. I’ve come to realize that I think a big part of my OCD is linked to low self esteem. One of the biggest facets I see this in is my relationship. I’ve been with my boyfriend for almost 6 years. But I still struggle with being intimate some times. I have intrusive thoughts relating to HOCD (SOOCD) and ROCD usually. Now, I’m starting to think it may also be affected by my self esteem. Before my OCD hit I would describe myself as a pretty confident woman, knowing my convictions and being strongly rooted in them. But as we all know, OCD attacks the things that are most important to us like our relationships and/or sexual identity. Has any other woman (or person in general) noticed their issues with intimacy being linked to self esteem and constant rumination?

yes! most of my thoughts come from my low self esteem

Nobody is perfect, people do and say all sorts of things that stem from insecurities. Would be nice to not replay my own short comings over and over in my head though...

I feel my rocd is linked to my insecurity, not in the same way yours is, but im constantly needing reassurance that my partner actually likes me and wants to be with me and only me because I'm so insecure. With sex I get worried that he's not as turned on and need to 'check' and im sure it's linked to how ugly I feel

For me a lot of my ROCD is linked to not trusting myself. I fear I am a bad judge, crazy, stupid, always getting myself in bad situations and that I’ve been “thinking wrong” in my choice of a partner. So it comes from my own self doubt, not from an issue in my partner.

Oh yeah absolutely. You're not alone there.

I’ve suffered from low self esteem and low confidence for years I couldn’t tell if ocd came first or the low confidence came first

Yes I can relate. A lot of my OCD thoughts and fears come from a place of doubt for myself so I constantly will obsess over if I truly love my boyfriend or not and the OCD will legit make me think and feel like I don’t. It can be really bad sometimes. But then other days are good and the obsessions aren’t so bad.