- Date posted
- 3y
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
Maybe try the SOS button? It helps me get through tough times
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- Date posted
- 18w
I donāt know what I can do. I guess this is more of a depression thing than OCD but who knows. I have been battling this ongoing war within myself for years now and itās been affecting my academic performance. situation of mine right now: I havenāt done a lot of work for my classes this month and I feel like Iām going to fail the semester again. I donāt know what it is but I can never seem to begin any work. I know I am capable but why canāt I get myself to start? why has this been going on for so long? I donāt understand. I have a history of good grades back in high school before I turned 17. I donāt even know how to describe it. itās like Iāve been paralyzed and cannot do any work. but I can somehow do offside tasks like pinterest boards or random youtube videos. if I get rid of those, what do I do? I end up sleeping. because Iām tired. I have a low vitamin D deficiency & have been trying to get energy. Iām at a loss. I also bought unnecessary stuff on sunday when I went out with my family. I bought some things for the kids and I ended up buying myself a dress and a few accessories. now I have to work extra to gain that money back doing uber eats because I need it asap. itās like I donāt want to work, for now. my coworkers who are around my age donāt work as much & I think to myself, āwow, they must be getting in the work doneā meanwhile Iām working 3 days a week (which isnāt much) and attending school. I feel like if I change my schedule again, Iāll ruin it for the rest of my driver coworkers. Iām in a lead position at work so having to put on a mask is quite tiring. thereās so much I want to say that I donāt think it will fit in this post. I have booked a mental health session with a school counselor. all I want at the moment is to have my own place and be in a better mental state to take care of my cats. they mean a lot to me but this stupid ass undiagnosed mental issue is getting in the way. sorry for the long rant. I am tired.
- Date posted
- 11w
This app is too flooded with posts and not enough people returning help. I really need it like. Iām sorry to be a nuisance but literally nobody else understands OCD & how debilitating it is. Iām so tired. So so tired.
- Date posted
- 11w
First off - Iām sorry, I post here a lot. My thoughts are going to be scattered because I have the adhd/ocd/executive dysfunction wombo combo. Im so embarrassed I am THIS neurodivergent. I swear my brain couldnāt pick one struggle and settle with it. Iām not making these diagnoses quirky personality traits by any means, in fact, in this post im venting about how exhausting and embarassed I am living with a brain like this on the daily. I need to hear someoneās advice please. I love hearing everyoneās advice on posts because itās so useful, and brings me back down to reality. Everyone on here gives advice so tastefully in a way where it doesnāt feed into the self reassurance compulsion, but itās also been thorough and constructive enough where itās reminded me to ground myself in a healthy way. I love seeing others helping others, it soothes me. This community has been so kind, and Iām so happy I found it. I wish I could ask more, but I have so many questions I think itād drive everyone here crazy lol. I am doing erp therapy now, and itās been teaching me so many amazing techniques. Iāve been making progress. However, I sometimes have my moments of vunerablity. Iāve been experiencing this especially now more than ever because I am going through a breakup. He did it through text after nearly 9 months together. Iād do anything for him and love him through anything, and he broke my heart when I least expected it. Iād make his bed for him multiple times, but I havenāt done that for myself in years. Iād sit with him for hours to watch and do anything he likes, but heād never do the same and Iād never do the same for me. Iām also at fault because I was too scared to speak up so I let a lot of disrespect slide. Why did my ocd do that? Why does ocd make me people please even when I donāt want to? Why does OCD make me care so much about things that will never effect me (like wanting validation from a random person on the street and hoping theyāll think Iām pretty enough to look at), but then when it comes to my future or positive wellbeing (like focusing on college/doing well in classes/personal hygiene/health), forces me to not care/neglect myself and those needs? I donāt understand it. Ocd makes me think everythingās a setup or a trap. I can never believe that I am fine right where I want to be. Why am I so hard on myself? Why do I even think this much? I care and feel so deeply but it becomes unhealthy so fast because ocd makes me fixate and I stay there for a while. For some reason I let this breakup define my self worth. I let it topple into the ocd fear that I will never make it in life - that I wonāt be successful, Iāll never get the career I want, the love I want, or the life I want. My OCDās version of ālogicā isnāt even logical. Yes, I understand how the breakup means feelings of low self worth which will then topple into feeling bad about other things. But why has my brain been wired to think this way? Why does it seem so easy for everyone else to function normally with life but not me? Honestly this is the first time in my life where Iām dedicated to focusing on myself and learning more about myself instead of others in my life and itās a very odd and bizarre feeling. Iām excited of course, but Iām also scared. My ocd makes me ruminate like āwhat if I will never make the most of this life Iāve been givenā, āwhat if I truly have no worth and the most I will ever be in other peopleās lives is a background characterā, āwhy do I care if Iām a background character or not? I should feel guilty and ignorant for assuming everyone will automatically like meā, āare people lying to me when they call me pretty, smart or kind?ā, āI need to look and sound perfect in both pictures, videos and in real life. I will never be satisfied for accepting who I am nowā, and a bunch of other annoying questions. But sometimes itās like I just canāt take the reality for what it is but at the same time, but I also acknowledge that I know this is ocd talking. This is so, so difficult. Do I make any sense with what Iām saying? Can anyone help?
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