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- 21w
TW Iām feeling really bad about myself today. I feel like a fraud and a liar. Iāve been unable to enjoy my time with my girlfriend because Iām bombarded with my thoughts. Iāve been asking for reassurance from so many people and nothing is helping. Nothing makes me feel better anymore and Iām worried that this is just how itās going to be for forever. I miss when I could just be happy and not overthink so much. I miss being able to get through my days without this crippling anxiety. Iām worried thereās going to be a day where I realize I have no fight left in me
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- 8w
I just feel like therapy isnāt working⦠like I get to talk about myself and understand myself⦠but Iām already incredibly self aware. My therapist thought I was like 5 years older than I am⦠and she gives me such basic strategies that do absolutely nothing for me. And a psychiatrist prescribed me with Zoloft⦠but I donāt know if T want to take medication. Iām scared of side effects⦠and Iām scared of getting better⦠Iām scared of letting my guard down. I know it will make me less cautious which makes me less likely to push myself to perfection like I currently do, which I canāt have happen. Every time I talk to my mom about it, sheās always like āLetās talk about this some other time, Iām busy with other thingsā, and then never remembers. But in the rare moments we do talk about it, she treats it like Iām signing up to be a drug addict. I also feel very guilty for spending so much of my parentsā money- therapy⦠medication⦠etc⦠and also the idea of my being unlovable is so deeply engraved in my brain⦠I genuinely, truly believe it. No therapy or medication can fix it. I canāt change my mind. My therapist tells me my misophonia is not a ādeal-breakerā and that someone would be lucky to have me as a partner⦠but then why hasnāt anyone ever liked me? My own FAMILY canāt stand me. How do I believe something I know isnāt true? Thatās even harder to accept than me being unlovable. I canāt see someone loving me. And it is so incredibly exhausting to seek love,e I know I cannot have. My sister says, āIt will get better with ageā¦ā It has only ever gotten worse. To the point I donāt want to get better. It has reached the severity where I feel more safe and successful with anxiety. My past 3 birthdays have been me wishing for therapy. And now I have therpay- and medication, the potential key⦠and I refuse? Am I too deep in? I cant get out, itās too late. How did absolutely no one notice how much I had and have been hurting? Why did no one listen to my cries or worries? I feel really depressed and hopeless right now. It takes so much effort to get up every day⦠Iām so tired.
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- 7w
I genuinely can't help but feel irredeemable over every little mistake made or regret I've had. It's so up and down, but I just miss the certainty. Knowing "this is who I am." I'm so disconnected from myself. Like, I'm really, really trying. Today is really rough... I got triggered the other night, and it's been hell since. I've been fighting seeking reassurance. I want it so, so incredibly bad, but I know it won't help me :( Some days, I just don't want to be here. It's funny because yesterday I felt amazing until I got triggered. I just immediately spiraled after that. I don't know. Does it genuinely get better? Will therapy really help me? Sometimes, I think maybe this is the best it'll get, and that scares me. Sorry for the vent. I'm just feeling so overwhelmingly anxious right now. I can't even cry (due to Zoloft). It feels claustrophobic somehow, having all these emotions trapped inside of my body with nowhere to go š
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