A compulsion is anything you do to relieve anxiety. For example, I get severe anxiety about thinking I have to tell my husband absolutely everything, even non-important things, and that I'm sinning if I don't. My compulsion is then to confess literally everything to him, even when it's harmful to both of us and does neither of us any good, but I experience temporary relief from anxiety after telling him (before my next obsession that I feel I need to confess). Rumination is pretty much just obsessing over a thought. Like, "oh, I had an intrusive and/or sexual thought about so-and-so" and then not being able to stop thinking about it, it consumes you, and often leads to a compulsive behavior to stop the thoughts. Hope this helps!
wow thanks for taking the time to reply. But for rumination, I feel like it’s not my fault because there thoughts I can’t help or stop. What do you do when your feeling like this? I hope that makes sense
@mm3 I firmly believe rumination isn't your fault. It's the obsessive part of OCD, and none of us are at fault for our disorder! We can learn to control it and such, but no, it's not your fault :)
@mm3 I have a few exercises I'm supposed to work through given to me by my counselor.
@BigAl15 yeah I’ve been getting better at not letting a thought brother me so much and then I just forget about it