You being scared that you don’t love youre girlfriend it’s proof enough that you care and love her. If you didn’t then the worry wouldn’t be there. I get thee “signs” too and what Ive learned about OCD is it makes it so real. It feels the signs fit so perfectly. We’ve all been there bud.
Is it normal that it feels wprse than normal? Like everything seems different like just new (in a bad way). Like it got stronger
Of course, there’s always highs and lows and ups and downs with OCD. The unfamiliar feelings will always get you.
@Anonymous It just feels like so new and something i havent experienced before and it scares me because it feels like all the things im afraid of are true and iv just been in denial or something
@Anonymous Remember man, if you didn’t love your girlfriend then you wouldn’t be worried right now. The OCD is taking over. For me Id get used to a feeling know how to control it and then another one would pop in and it would feel brand new and scare the ever living heck out of me. That’s normal. Think about all the good feelings. The moment you cherish with her. If you didn’t love her, you’d never have those moments.
At the core of all obsessions is a desire to feel security about something we fundamentally cannot have certainty about. Imagine if you were in the woods and you saw a bear. The next time you were in the woods, you’d be thinking about bears. You’d be looking for signs of bears. And you’d want to avoid any chance, if possible, of encountering a bear. You’d be analyzing what you’re observing or experiencing in the hopes of avoiding being in danger. That’s essentially what your brain is doing with your obsession. It’s attached a sense of danger to a particular thought that almost everyone has, and now it begins a cycle of compulsions to try and soothe that sense of distress. Of the many compulsions, some are analyzing, reviewing and asking for reassurance. Resisting and reducing compulsions is a key component in achieving recovery from OCD. So, while I can’t provide you with reassurance, I can suggest that if you’re not in treatment that you begin. Or if you’ve already started, to continue working with your therapist towards your ultimate goals.
New and stronger with the OCD, it just doesnt feel like the familiar things that I go through with this