Has anyone ever had any personality or identity issues in the past? As far I can remember I had some in the back of my head. Im just worried bc gay people often say they felt different, and I have felt that. I mean I never liked guys though but now it feels like Im being attracted to their faces and I dont know If I want to or not. Its bugs and depresses me bc I feel that attraction more than girls. Few months ago I knew I didnt want it now I dont know at all

i always felt like an outcast and different from other classmates and i used to ruminate if that meant i was different from them sexuality wise when i never really thought of it that way. for context, i used to be the quiet kid and really kept to myself and not really that socialable. i really relate to the last line

I didnt feel like I was different until I was 18-19 getting high and looking at my old pictures and feeling inferior or like what type of person am I or what do I bring to the table amongst my friends group.