Sometimes I think I’m getting better but I just still feel like I’ve lost a piece of myself. Where’s the me that loved my partner so easily ? The me that loved men and didn’t really care about girls ? The me that loved to hang out with friends ? Where did she go? I miss her…

I’m okay with always having this, I just want to feel love for my partner again in the same intensity and passion. I know it was there. Those things don’t just disappear… I hope

That's how I feel! I was able to do things I enjoyed without having these intrusive thoughts/feelings. Seeing cute guys wherever I went and being excited for when I would eventually get a boyfriend.