I went on Pinterest and looked up “ocd reassurance” because I need to compiles, y’know? I get “rEaSsUraNcE iS a ComPulSiOn” and “dOn’T gIvE iN” Like I know what I’m supposed to do, thanks, please give me reassurance right now I know that reassurance is bad but I really need it right now :(

What did I do if I really want reassurance

I’ve heard it’s not good to seek reassurance or give it because it lowers your tolerance to uncertainty. But how do I avoid seeking reassurance when my thoughts and doubts are so bad, I genuinely just don’t know anymore if I’m a bad person or if it’s just OCD? I know I’m supposed to sit with the uncertainty, but how can I do that when the uncertainty has me unable to trust my own brain? Especially when the OCD is real event and POCD? How can I not seek reassurance when I feel so alone and so abnormal and just don’t wanna feel that way anymore? In turn, I see so many people on here struggling so bad and my heart breaks for them. How can I give advice to towers without giving them reassurance and hurting them in the long run?

I'm trying to not seek reassurance today. I'm not going to. I'm not going to. I'm NOT going to!! Ugh. Why OCD why?