i know i love my boyfriend and i know he’s attractive, but my mind is telling me that both of those things are false. i feel completely numb to everything. it’s a hard day for sure. i don’t want to accept uncertainty for the fear that it could be true, and compulsions aren’t giving me any relief. i’m so lost and confused. if anyone has any advice, i’m all ears!

Feelings and thoughts come and go. I’ve been through enough OCD cycles to know once I calm down and un-fuse from my OCD feelings and thoughts, I have a completely different outlook of my boyfriend, what’s true. OCD will lie and say different things to convince you it’s different this time! But it’s not. Hang in there, let time pass.

thank you so much for these helpful words. i’ll make sure to remember this! 😊

@bellag You know, I was watching a webinar on NOCD last Wednesday and they mentioned something worth remembering. On my bad days I’m always trying to achieve comfort, like that’s my goal. Also on my bad days I regret not getting anything done bc I stay stuck and busy working on comfort. The guest on the webinar said his “sitting with it” isn’t literally sitting still with it. He makes a list of things he needs to accomplish for the day and works on checking them off. He said it’s not so much distraction bc the thought has its way of staying with him and later in the webinar he said he doesn’t try to get comfortable, he’s just okay with being uncomfortable just going about his day. Then lol lastly I love affirmations “letting go in a relationship can be fun” and “I don’t need to analyze my partner”. Those two are from an app I have and I circle those around in my mind too. Harder to do than say but letting go (once i can do it) brings me stability & I have to remind myself what I want - a happy, healthy relationship, eventually marriage, someone with a good heart to grow old with, etc.

It’s not real. I think of mine as my brain using a defensive mechanism to try to protect me from getting hurt by attacking my relationships and distorting things to push me away and keep me safe. It’s your brain just doing what it was trained to do. That doesn’t mean that it’s real!

thank you so much! i didn’t even look at it that way :)

Yeah I have this too and I’m terrified