I'm crying rn, lately I've been feeling like I'm gonna "come out" but I don't want that, I know im straight but my thoughts tell me otherwise or that I don't want to be straight or that I want the thoughts and it's making me panic a lot. I just want to be straight. This feels too real now, it feels like im in denial.

has it ever been so had you don't even know if you want it or not amymore?? :(

@Nour04 Right now idk if I want it or no😭

@raj123 it's awful i swear. like if someone asked me if i wanted to be with girls i wouldn't know how to answer. you feel this way???

@Nour04 Yes. And the worst thing is that before hocd when someone paired me with a girl, I would blush but now I feel really awkward and I guess I have anxiety a bit😭

@Nour04 Do you feel the same

@raj123 i do have a little bit of anxiety but it's not as much as it should be :( and idk if i want it or not anymore

@Nour04 But do you have that awkward feeling when someone pairs you with the opposite gender😭

@raj123 now it feels weird fantasizing about the opposite sex :(

@Nour04 THIS !! Exactly

@Nour04 Same, I fantasize about guys and it feels weird but then I'm like wait why, I like guys 💀