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has it ever been so had you don't even know if you want it or not amymore?? :(
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@Nour04 Right now idk if I want it or noš
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@raj123 it's awful i swear. like if someone asked me if i wanted to be with girls i wouldn't know how to answer. you feel this way???
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@Nour04 Yes. And the worst thing is that before hocd when someone paired me with a girl, I would blush but now I feel really awkward and I guess I have anxiety a bitš
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@Nour04 Do you feel the same
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@raj123 i do have a little bit of anxiety but it's not as much as it should be :( and idk if i want it or not anymore
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@Nour04 But do you have that awkward feeling when someone pairs you with the opposite genderš
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@raj123 now it feels weird fantasizing about the opposite sex :(
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@Nour04 THIS !! Exactly
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@Nour04 Same, I fantasize about guys and it feels weird but then I'm like wait why, I like guys š
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Same, in my case, when I tell myself that I'm straight, it feels like I'm lying. And I have all those things that u wrote above
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Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now theyāre just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself itās two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself itās alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if itās just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but itās confusing. On top of that Iāve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like Iād be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk Iāve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that Iām straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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Like I canāt think straight. This is making me doubt everything Iāve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I donāt. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go āoh so you like it you must be gayā or the other one where Iām not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that Iāve had my whole life and my mind goes āsee now youāre not into them youāre gayā like itās so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or āa thing of the pastā. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and itās so weird. Today Iāve spent my whole day thinking about it like Iāve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just wonāt let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
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just crying cause i feel like im never going to recover and just have to be lesbian, even tho i love my boyfriend so much. thoughts donāt even give me anxiety anymore idk what to do, im just so done, feel like itās all real and that i want it(when i dont). any tips or anything, idk how to keep going
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