I haven’t been diagnosed with OCD because I haven’t been able to see a therapist, but I’m almost certain I have it. I keep having intrusive thoughts and frequently feel guilty about a specific mistake a made in the past. I think that’s rumination? I’ve also noticed that I always seek reassurance whenever I feel guilty for that mistake. I know that I do it too much and shouldn’t stress out other people by always asking. I had a bad night’s sleep thinking about a mistake I made a few years ago and how I should be punished for it, so I think it may be OCD that’s making me feel excessively guilty. If I don’t seek reassurance, I tend to feel horrible. I know that I shouldn’t look for reassurance, but sitting with the feeling of intense guilt is so hard.
I just wanted to share what I’ve been going through because no one close to me has OCD and I don’t think they fully understand what I’m going through. This app makes me feel like I’m not alone in this and I’m really glad this app exists.