I feel this so much. Right now my brain is like “but what if this is what you actually want??? Why isn’t this freaking you out more”
i feel like i want it and i can't even tell if i really do or not. when this all happened i was disgusted by the thought of it being true but now i just can't tell and i feel almost okay with it and barely have any anxiety. i don't think i have ocd honestly
@Nour04 I’m dealing with the same exact thing. It’s so hard.
@Nour04 Pretty much how I feel
Regardless of if it turns out you are actually gay or straight, it’s still OCD if you are spending lots of time worrying and checking and ruminating about it. Remember OCD is the pattern of behavior, not the content of your thoughts / the thing you’re worrying about :) OCD doesn’t put delusions in your head, it just makes it very very difficult to cope with uncertainty and ambiguity,