i was so distressed a while ago and now i've taken a shower, dressed up and ready to go out??? why??? am i not distressed? why am i so indifferent? is this not ocd?? and yet i am not so worried about not being anxious! i don't feel like this is ocd anymore :(

Girl you're recovering. why are you so upset about it😭

because it feels like i don't have ocd which means all that i am feeling is a part of me and not ocd :(

@Nour04 YOU ARE GETTING BETTER!!!!

I get this particular obsession a lot ! recovery is not linear, and it isn’t “evidence” of never having had an illness - it’s just evidence of progress. you deserve to get better!! being anxious sucks, but showering and leaving the house are big big progress markers and they definitely do not undermine/disprove 1) your ocd diagnosis nor 2) the intensity of your feelings right now. these things can all exist! recovery is weird and full of contradictions - like everything with ocd, we have to accept the “may or may not” and rejoice in the small wins.

yes but going out and feeling less anxious makes me feel like i never had ocd and these thoughts are mine and not ocd induced