i am leading an almost normal life without the ocd getting in my way which means i don't have ocd. i haven't properly panicked in s while nor ruminated. i feel like my thoughts and feelings are mine and not driven by ocd. it feels like i am accepting myself after months of denial

I don’t know. I have had times where the thoughts do not bother me at all and then it eventually comes back

Thats great to hear! What to you mean by „feels line I’m accepting myself after months of denial?“

But yet ur still posting about worrying about nor worrying about it. Same loop I get caught up in.