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AcrasiaAcrasia
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I get nervous sometimes when I’m alone with my mom, I’d get intrusive thoughts that would say “tell her you’re bi” or “say that you’re interested in girls”.
alexisrae1999alexisrae1999
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Dude I used to get it ALL the time. In fact, it was so bad two separate times that I actually said to my mom that I "might be gay." I have also fake come out to someone on the internet, only to revoke it because it didn't feel right after I did it. You know why? Because i dont identify as gay. Our ocd brains think that we are coming to a conclusion, we want relief. We want the constant questioning of ourselves to stop and we want it done now. Our brains are different. They will continue going! "Coming out" is a compulsion. We are just wanting all of this done. I'd hate it if I had to force myself to be with a woman, but sometimes the anxiety, fear, and self doubts hit so hard that I just want it to stop. ERP is the only thing that'll help
HJOxHJOx
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Hi hun! Have you recovered from ERP? X
alexisrae1999alexisrae1999
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@Olivia94 Nope, but i have struggled with ocd symptoms since i was 7 (I'm 22). I didn't even know it was ocd and I was severely depressed, anxious, and basically mute for the majority of my life. Erp has changed my life, but I know this is going to take a while!
anxiety:>anxiety:>
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Damn, but the thing is idk if I want it or not anymore
anxiety:>anxiety:>
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@corpse dance Like even if I say I'm straight it feels false
HJOxHJOx
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Do you have more of an understanding now that the thoughts are not you? X
alexisrae1999alexisrae1999
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I do have quite a few bad days, but what I have been nothing lately is that I am able to decipher what is ocd and what is not. And what I know I want in my soul :)
HJOxHJOx
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@alexisrae1999 Do you get more bad than good days? X
alexisrae1999alexisrae1999
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@O94 Its evened out for me! It used to be every day basically was a bad day, but I'm super happy I'm able to have entire good days now :)
HJOxHJOx
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@alexisrae1999 That’s good! How long have you done ERP for? X
alexisrae1999alexisrae1999
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@O94 I'd say I've been practicing ERP techniques for about a month and a half :)
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