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I have these fears to. I’ve watched lesbian porn in the night and not even think about it through the day. No porn/masturbation since September for me
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Same here, I did this in elementary school because I was exploring but I stopped after two months because I realized I didn’t like it. But I was aroused but I never thought about it and it never made me doubt I was heterosexual
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I'm in the exact same situation. It's so scary, because I'd never engage in an actual relationship with a woman. It's just not who I am. But I did watch it, and it never worried me or made me doubt about my desires in regard to men. Since I started having hocd (in January), this made me paranoid about this. And I even read about a woman who had hocd, and she recovered from it and continued to identify as heterosexual but says securely that she finds women beautiful too, but that doesn't change the fact that she's heterosexual. This gave me such a relief at the time, but now I started worrying again about the same thing. It was like that for her, but what about it Isn't for me? This doubting is making me go insane. Besides, I'm getting to know a guy, and he's so sweet, I'm starting to like him a lot, but I'm so afraid that this mess that I am now is going to push him away. I can't stand this anymore.
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Let the thoughts be! They are just thoughts. You have the choice to be whoever you want to be and with whoever you want to be with. You have a choice. Don't let OCD think you don't. It's ok to feel attraction towards both sexes - that doesn't mean you want to be in a relationship with someone because you're attracted to them. Falling in love isn't just about attraction, it's about emotional connection. So regardless of the sex you prefer, get to know someone with no judgement and then decide if they are for you because of who they are and what they bring to the relationship.
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Has anyone experienced where you love woman everything about them, even to the point where you still can get erections watching normal porn, lesbian porn etc. but you find your self still admiring a good looking man. I’ve went through the groinal responses when seeing a man but honestly after watching porn and realizing it’s not about sex it went away. On the other hand even when there’s a male and a female in a picture I can’t stop looking at the male and judging, but the minute they’re naked I’m fine and looking at the woman. I started watching porn at a very young age so I’m wondering do I only sexualize woman and admire the man so in everyday life I don’t see her as beautiful because she’s not naked ? I understand as a straight male I can still think guys are attractive but why do I constantly notice them more than women? I also can admire and see when a girl is beautiful in the face but then if a dude that’s more attractive than me pops up in staring at him. Has anyone experience this?
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Hi everyone, I’ve been really anxious lately, and I just need to get this out of my head. Someone recently told me that maybe I’m bisexual — that I might be more sexually attracted to women, but more romantically attracted to men. That bisexuality is not 50/50. And ever since I heard that, I’ve been spiraling. The thing is: I don’t want this to be true. It scares me. I don’t feel romantic attraction to women, I’ve never wanted to be in a relationship with one. But yes, I get aroused by fantasies involving women — and that makes me feel broken or like I’ve been lying to myself. I love my boyfriend deeply, I don’t want to lose him. I want to feel fully connected to him, physically and emotionally. But now I’m stuck in this obsessive loop of questioning: “What if I’m just in denial?” “What if I’m not really straight?” “What if this is why my libido is low?” It’s exhausting, and I don’t know if this is OCD, anxiety, or if something is fundamentally wrong. Has anyone else felt this split — romantic feelings for one gender, sexual feelings for another? I feel so alone and scared. Thanks for listening.
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I really need help understanding what I’m going through. For a long time now, I’ve been struggling with thoughts and feelings about women that confuse and scare me. Sometimes I feel this strange emotional or mental ‘pull’ toward certain women — it’s not exactly sexual, and not clearly romantic either, but it feels like something, and it triggers deep anxiety. When I see a beautiful woman or a WLW (woman-loving-woman) couple, I feel something that I can’t explain — sometimes I think it’s just admiration or aesthetic appreciation, but OCD keeps telling me: “You felt something, so you must be gay,” or “You’re hiding something.” I get stuck in endless loops, trying to analyze these moments and label them. Even when I feel physical or emotional reactions, they don’t feel natural or aligned with who I am. They feel like a reaction to the idea of women, not real attraction. I try to be honest with myself — I even told a friend I might be bisexual at some point, just to test if that felt more comfortable. But it didn’t. It made things worse, and I felt like I lost touch with who I am. I don’t want to lie to myself or live in denial, but I’m exhausted. It feels like I’m being mentally forced to feel something that isn’t mine. I’m 14, and I understand that things might still be developing, but I can’t help feeling like I’ve always been drawn to men, and never naturally wanted women that way. Still, I keep doubting everything. Is this real attraction or OCD feeding false feelings and thoughts? Can OCD create emotional or mental sensations that feel like desire? I’m so scared that I’ll lose myself, or find out something I never wanted. I just want peace and to feel like myself again.
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