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I understand. Living with it is harder than it should be
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I don’t ever wanna be a pedo... I just want to be with women my age and above and that’s all I want... the last thing in the world is to even THINK about being attracted to kids in any way.,. I don’t ever want to be a pedo...
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first I would say don't use hurtful words on yourself as it makes you feel worse. but remeber guilt is useless, people change and things in the past are done and done. you clearly have changed and were just unaware of the had things about what you watched, I know so many people that watch loli at the age of 16 I know you said 18 but still you were basically a kid. your brain is never done developing and everyone, EVERYONE makes mistakes. guilt is holding you back and clearly you are different, you a are a new person not who you were before. attraction is uncontrollable and you meant no harm.
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I don’t want to be attracted to kids in any way shape or form... I don’t ever wanna think about doing anything to kids let alone actually do them... I don’t ever wanna be a pedo.... I just wanna love women my age and above and all I want in my life is to love women my age and above...
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@POCD/RealEventOCD pedophiles don't spend there life worrying about being attracted to children, allow the thoughts to come in and I hope you will recover soon
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@pruni When I think about adult women, I feel calm and relaxed and I feel happy overall... when I get intrusive HOCD and POCD thoughts, I get nervous, I occasionally puke and gag, and I hate the thoughts in general so I try to get rid of them...
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@POCD/RealEventOCD that's the thing you can't get rid of intrusive thoughts. that's why letting them come in and learning to live with them will over time diminish the amount you get.
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@pruni I’m getting intrusive thoughts of being a child m*****ter when that’s the last thing I want to be...
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@POCD/RealEventOCD child molesters don't worry about being child molesters
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I'm 17 years old I struggle with addiction I have a problem when I masterbate I have intrusive thoughts idk if I think them I'm so scared also back then I know when I was younger I looked at obscure things hentai all that my idk what to do even I feel like I'm a monster or im a bad person I need help I feel so distraught I feel like I can't live life to the fullest anymore even from last year I looked at content that was animated but it had a character in it that was underage I felt so ashamed and felt like a monster I had a compulsion to check it only to find out they are not around my age range idk what to do I probably sound like a freak I'm sorry I'm always trying to replay my memory and try to remember my intention and what I was doing how I come across how I was doing a action yk all that
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I hope someone can respond... Im genuinely so triggered and so anxious... Dr disrespect was accused of inappropriately messaging and sending explicit images to a minor, and trying to meet up with them at twitchcon... my POCD is saying that my situation with me venting about 18+ explicit HOCD stuff to people in the PM's on an OCD groupchat I found from NOCD, including the minors, when I was 19, means that I am just as bad as they are... or worse... I pm'ed them from the support group and vented to them in private (including the minors) about my 18+ explicit HOCD struggles... one was uncomfortable by it so i stopped venting to her after she told me she was uncomfortable by it twice... the other gave me reassurance so i kept asking her for reassurance for my 18+ hocd struggles... I dont ever want to ever be attracted to minors in any way... I dont ever want to ever engage in any inappropriate relations with minors in any way... i dont ever want to EVER be a MAP, a P, or a gro*mer in any way... I dont ever want to be what my pocd says about me... im so scared... someone said that I need help, that I need to turn myself in, and that im hiding behind a diagnosis because of this situation... i genuinely feel so hopeless... I dont ever want to ever be a monster...
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18+ TW! Involves sexual content I have learning disabilities which means im always going to be 3-5 years mentally behind from my actual age… when I was 14 I remember finding people saying they work with kids “attractive” and I remember mastu*** over a kid around 5+ but when I was 14 I was either mentally age 11 or 9. So I didn’t know it was wrong, and as soon as I realised I stopped. People say I was young and it’s okay but I remember finding people saying they even walked past a nursery “attractive” but I don’t know if this is even the right word. Maybe cute? Because I find different emotions hard to tell the difference between, so maybe it’s cute rather than attractive. I never ever had intentions to do anything to younger individuals, it was just me finding people saying they worked with them etc attractive… which my ocd now plays on, because my friend mentioned they were working with kids but idk if it was the real me or not but I genuinely felt like I found it attractive and it was giving my so many groinal responses which then made me feel genuinely aroused like I wanted to do things. This plays on my mind because my ocd will always say “but you did/do find stuff like this attractive” but this literally stops me from eating, sleeping or anything. I can’t break from my compultions because what if I do genuinely find it attractive. I don’t think it’s even attractive maybe it’s cute? Like I find it cute… but cuteness can give people feelings down there I guess. I think because if my learning disabilities I found it hard to know the difference between “attraction” and cute so I did stuff over it because it gave me that feeling down there but that could of been cuteness feeling. I just need some support on this.
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