i want to ruminate but then whenever i get the urge to do so it's like it has become "boring" for me and i feel the urge to stand up and go do something else instead of sitting and ruminating. is this a good sign???? or is this not ocd???

i have learnt to carry on even with the voice and anxiety in my head but it's slightly disturbing because i want to ruminate

i am constantly being interrupted by myself

it definitely sounds like a good thing to me, ruminating is one of the worst parts of OCD because it’s so easy to get stuck in the cycle but the fact you have the urge to break that cycle seems positive to me

it feels like i can just stop ruminating and go do something else but it feels like i don't want to. also i am not feeling very anxious . why???

@Nour04 and now here i am on YouTube, completely distracted as if nothing happened. why? why am i not ruminating? is this not ocd???? why am i not able to sit still and ruminate for hours on end like i used to???