i have learnt to carry on even with the voice and anxiety in my head but it's slightly disturbing because i want to ruminate
i am constantly being interrupted by myself
it definitely sounds like a good thing to me, ruminating is one of the worst parts of OCD because it’s so easy to get stuck in the cycle but the fact you have the urge to break that cycle seems positive to me
it feels like i can just stop ruminating and go do something else but it feels like i don't want to. also i am not feeling very anxious . why???
@Nour04 and now here i am on YouTube, completely distracted as if nothing happened. why? why am i not ruminating? is this not ocd???? why am i not able to sit still and ruminate for hours on end like i used to???
@Nour04 doubting whether you really have OCD is part of having OCD, lots of people start to feel guilty for NOT feeling guilty even though you’re doing nothing wrong by just sitting with it and that’s exactly what OCD does to you