so i watched something today that was pretty triggering.. read at your own risk. so i’ve been struggling with ROCD bad lately. (having a hard time even deciphering if it’s OCD or not 😰) i was watching a show and there was a scene where this girl and her boyfriend were getting ready to do the deed and she was thinking about someone else.. my ROCD gives me thoughts about one specific person that i literally am disgusted by, i would even say hate. yes, there’s a past with this person but there’s no contact whatsoever and talking about the person makes me sick.. ew. but i’m so worried that in my future this will happen and ruin the moment. i just want to forget about the person. and every time i do, my brain just reminds me again. any thoughts?? is this ocd?? i don’t want to think about the person. i just want to forget about them.. please helppppp :( it makes me uncomfortable. but then i question myself and ugh i’m so lost.

LisaP99

Date posted: 4y

I listened to an audible book once and it gave real life experiences. Some of them were kinda similar to yours. When he would get intimate with his gf he would have very intrusive thoughts about a man. He wasn’t attracted to men at all, no interest. Then there was one woman who would have intrusive thoughts about her brother when she was with her bf and it disgusted her. It said OCD has it’s way of butting in when we are having pleasant moments in our lives.

bellag

Date posted: 4y

mine is of the opposite sex :( so, a man. it feels like i’m cheating :( but thank you for sharing this with me. it disgusts and worries me.

LisaP99

Date posted: 4y

@bellag Yeah but in both scenarios the obsession was disgusting to the individuals. It uses something that’s so against your core values.

bellag

Date posted: 4y

@LisaP99 you’re right!

LisaP99

Date posted: 4y

And OCD can be like crashing waves, one after another not giving you a breather….

bellag

Date posted: 4y

it’s terrible. but you said it has a way of butting in when we’re trying to have pleasant/good moments.

LisaP99

Date posted: 4y

My heart goes out to you. You can master it. Not sure of your experience with OCD but ERP = healing.

bellag

Date posted: 4y

i’ve been diagnosed with OCD for 3 years almost. i got diagnosed with harm OCD but recently it’s been ROCD. haven’t done much with ERP. thank you for your kind words ❤️

LisaP99

Date posted: 4y

Welcome! Good luck!

bellag

Date posted: 4y

LisaP99

Date posted: 4y

@bellag Hey, just curious how did you cope with harm OCD? Bc you can use the same skills. when OCD changes themes, it’s like “same guy, he’s just talking in a different accent”.

bellag

Date posted: 4y

@LisaP99 it gradually went away! i learned how to cope with the thoughts in a healthy way. i don’t know why i feel like this time is different., because i know it’s probably not and it’s the OCD just talking all the time. i still have other intrusive thoughts but it seems to be focusing in really hard on one particular theme right now. getting better tho! ❤️‍🩹

LisaP99

Date posted: 4y

Oh good! :)

bellag

Date posted: 4y

it literally ruins every good moment i have with my boyfriend. because my mind just can’t stop. is there a deeper meaning behind this?? am i not supposed to be with my boyfriend?? i just want to be with him. i don’t want anyone else in my head. it’s like an itch that i can’t get rid of.

bellag

Date posted: 4y

i literally didn’t think about this person at all until they were brought up. they drove a wall between me and my boyfriend once and now my brain is torturing me because i let it happen (subconsciously). and it makes me so uncomfortable when my mind is ruminating and reminding of someone i don’t wanna think about or run into ever again. i would say i’m scared of this person! i don’t want anything to do with them or any contact with them. and i don’t have any contact! so why is my brain doing thisss

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Share your thoughts so the Community can respond