I was diagnosed last night but my obsessions seem so abstract I’m not even sure where to begin with them. I feel like all my thoughts and my whole life is in a giant knot that I tied it in or layers and layers of thick paint on a blank wall and I can’t untie it or peel back the layers I don’t even know where to start . I’m optimistic about ERP but so afraid I won’t even be able to do it.

Existential OCD

"Pure" OCD

I'm dealing with existential ocd right now too. I always feel hopeless because my obsessions are abstract but the most helpful thing I've told myself is "maybe, maybe not." May I ask what obsessions you have ?

I created my image to the extent that I have no idea who I really am and if anyone can see past those layers then they will all hate me and leave me