Anyone with SO OCD suffer more with ‘imagining things’ to happen even though you know they are totally not what you want/know will happen ?

I’m guilty of imagining scenarios just to test my reactions to them. I’ll stare at my doorway and say to myself “imagine your husband came through the door” and then I’d go “ok…now imagine you have a wife and she came through the door”. I do this over and over again until I determine which feels more “natural”. By the end, both feel unnatural and Im just extremely tired lol

yes

this is me

I dont know If I want them to happen or not, I dont think I do, regardless they give me anxiety and I feel so awful