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Tallyho! Welcome to the NOCD community. First of all, I'd like to say that it takes a lot of courage to talk about your struggle with OCD. You're never alone here and many of us know exactly what you're going through. I'd like to add this one piece of advice: The more you obsess about finding the answer or finding yourself or seeking the "truth," the hazier your perspective will become. In neuroscience, there is a law by Donald Hebb that says "what fires together, wires together" meaning that your neurons become associated throughout time and create learned associations. OCD sufferers are notoriously good at creating non existent associations š. The more you focus on these associations, the more they wire together and therefore, they feel more "real." I hope that advice can help shed light on your situation. Good luck!
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That makes alot of sense but my worry is that I dont think I was trying to find an answer or the truth( Maybe I was in the back of my head and didnt realize) but the rumination happened on auto pilot and it gave me so much proof and all of it made sense too :(
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Accept the fact you may be gay and then see where that goes. You know within yourself whether you are just allow your mind to wander and focus on each day. Eventually these thoughts will fade. I had one the other day where I thought I was a monster. My heart was racing, I could hear the āwhat itāsā in my head but I didnāt engage them. I let them be there and said ok maybe I am. The next day I think about the same scenario and realise it was OCD and itās nothing.
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I dont know who I am within myself
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I feel like this too, I feel like I've convinced myself and when I think about guys I feel nothing. I literally have no anxiety either, and no anxiety about anxiety but it's definitely hurting my brain. It feels like I like girls or that I should start liking them bc my attraction to guys isn't there :/
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Iāve completely lost myself. I canāt focus on my studies, I canāt go to the gym. Dang it I canāt even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I donāt feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. Itās like itās forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesnāt change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life itās ocd. Iāve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and Iām back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I canāt keep living with this.
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Like I canāt think straight. This is making me doubt everything Iāve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I donāt. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go āoh so you like it you must be gayā or the other one where Iām not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that Iāve had my whole life and my mind goes āsee now youāre not into them youāre gayā like itās so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or āa thing of the pastā. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and itās so weird. Today Iāve spent my whole day thinking about it like Iāve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just wonāt let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
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I wonāt explain this again if youāve been or going through it you know what Iām talking about. I felt good about women about an hour ago and now Iām worrying again Iām anxious and the groinals are back and itās so annoying because I canāt study. And honestly Iām so sick and tired of this. Iāve been a girl crazy my whole life and my mind randomly decides āwell what if you are gayā like bro. Iāve never seen a guy that way and in general IT WAS NEVER SOMETHING I THOUGHT ABOUT OR ASSOCIATED MYSELF WITH. IVE NEVER FELT ANYTHING TOWARDS A MAN AND NOW IT FEELS LIKE IT RANDOMLY FLIPPED. I CANT DO THIS BRO. WHY WOULD THIS HAPPEN IVE BEEN GOING THROUGH INSECURITIES ALREADY AND MY ATTRACTION WAS THE ONLY REAL THING I HAD LEFT AND NOW THIS. HOW MUCH DO YOU HATE ME GOD.
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