Nour04
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GabbrielGabbriel
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Talking to someone else does really help indeed, it is not just the reassuring, it is a loneliness feeling and the desire of having someone besides!
GabbrielGabbriel
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@Anonymous It does not really work like that at all, it is just the reassuring that sticks out to be very bad. It is not like if you want to talk to a loved one, you will avoid them just because they might turn into a compulsion. This will turn into a compulsion of not getting a compulsion which is pretty weird and consuming
Nour04Nour04
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has any of you seen Brooklyn 99?
OCDumb >:(OCDumb >:(
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Unfortunately I have not, but I’ve heard it’s very good
Nour04Nour04
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@OCDumb >:( yeah well it is and i really like that show. but today i was watching this episode where a character comes out as bi and my anxiety spiked. is it because i got "called out"??? and i also kept checking my dad all along to see if he would react but why would i do that if i weren't scared he wouldn't accept me if i came out and it's why i am in denial???
OCDumb >:(OCDumb >:(
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@Nour04 Oh nooo :( no, I don’t think so. I did the same thing while watching a movie where a gay character came out to a friend. And I (think) I’m not gay.
Nour04Nour04
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@Nour04 and then we switched to another show, parks and rec. i was still feeling anxious but was able to laugh at some jokes and shake it off a bit, but a person with REAL ocd wouldn't be able to do that so easily would they? so that means i don't have ocd and am just in denial. i was trying so hard not to ruminate but i feel like i want to but then i want to stay above this all and ignore it and go to sleep but then that would proof i don't have ocd. but then ruminating for that reason would mean i am also faking it. i can't even tell if i am anxious or not anymore. i feel like i am
GabbrielGabbriel
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@Nour04 I understand what you are saying and what you are going through. In your eyes that thing feels very weird and awful because OCD tells you false beliefs that you think they are your own but they truly aren't! The first step would be not to seek for reassurence and ignore what bad thoughts appear in your head, they are just ideas, they have no power to control you if you don't want to. Follow your heart and what you really feel, not the bad ideas that arise. Do not fight them, do not reply them, only observe them and ignore, do what you enjoy doing
Nour04Nour04
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@OCDumb >:( i wasn't like waiting for his take on it, i just was checking if he was paying attention or not because if he did he might have asked what i was watching and stuff would have been awkward. what if i was indeed waiting for his reaction?????
OCDumb >:(OCDumb >:(
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@Nour04 Honestly mood But fr, doubting you have ocd based on various things like that is totally normal. I do the same
Nour04Nour04
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@Gabbriel i have been able to ignore them for so long that i actually believe i don't have ocd and am actuallt bi
OCDumb >:(OCDumb >:(
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What d’ya wanna talk about? :)
GabbrielGabbriel
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I am talking about OCD, You might not have it but the symptoms and really general even for normal people
Nour04Nour04
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wait what? do you think i don't have ocd?
GabbrielGabbriel
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It depends. But as you explained it could be, I know what you are going through and everything is just false and illogical, trust me. If you feel wrong and weird about anything, it is ocd pushing you from behind. Just acknowledge the fact that the thoughts and feeling arise, observe them and don't ruminate about it! Don't care what is going on! You are okay, nothing bad will happen. Follow what your heart really tells you
GabbrielGabbriel
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Don't care about a randomly though pops and starts like: "What if you.." "If you don't.." If you have such things, this is clearly ocd
Nour04Nour04
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i do but i fear (and i sometimes feel) that they are self generated just to "prove" i have OCD
GabbrielGabbriel
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The ocd makes them and they are called compulsions. If you act on what you are thinking, it is called a compulsion. For example: "If you don't change the TV channel something bad will happen". You will feel very anxious about it then quickly change the channel and feel like the anxiety got away partially but this is only for short term, it will return stronger and stronger everytime you keep doing a compulsion. Resisting the urge of not doing it, for example sticking to the same channel, will cause anxiety but it will go away, it won't get worse, won't stick permanently. It will go down on its own by the process called habituation. You gain tolerance and feel less and less anxiety
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