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- RelationshipObsessed
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Dude I get this on a SPIRITUAL level! I freak out about the stupidest things and spiral down rabbit holes about it. If it helps, he probably wasn't even thinking about her. If he's anything like my husband, that would be the only floor he could think but probably didn't even link it to his past relationship. But I would freak out too! OCD is a b!tch
Thank you so much for validating me and this. OCD is suuuuuuuch a bitch
No I honestly understand that, it makes you feel like a psycho but it's literally something you can't help! There's not anything to be ashamed of, it's just really hard to deal with sometimes I've never really spoke to my boyfriend about it so i can't even blame him when he does because he doesn't know! But that sounds so difficult, sometimes things accidentally do slip out and it's so hard when you know that they know it is a trigger but you can only do the best you can do, i definitely feel like a crazy girlfriend so often! It's so difficult to bring yourseld out of that spiral too so i really do understand
Oh wow nice that there are people out there that can relate. It's so weird. It's like being mad or angry is going to help anything. I almost feel like anger and sadness can be addicting, like I could choose to not overreact and just say that's fine. But I choose to be mad or sad. I sometimes even feel like I have to ignore his texts or be distant to him as a from of punishment. Which again is not a thing I would normally do. But when it's about sex I think my underlying fear is that our relationship isn't good enough, and then the fear is expressed in anger. But I hate doing this to him, because he makes such an effort to make me happy. It breaks my heart :( But that's just what ocd does. It will always find ways
I completely understand this, my boyfriend references his past relationships or even other girls a lot and I instantly get a wave of jealousy and feel so angry and mad about it, I really struggle to understand where the line is and what is and is not okay to feel jealous or mad about. Just whenever this happens I instantly think that there MUST be something happening there as they have crossed his mind even though he has given me absolutely no reason other than this to believe it. It gets me so confused.
Thank you so much for sharing. I feel less alone! I truly felt crazy
@RelationshipObsessed Mine never references his because he knows it’s a huge trigger for me so it makes me even madder he let that slip out or that that was on his mind. I’m like “you should be more thoughtful!” Then the shame spiral of being a crazy OCD girlfriend…
I can deffo understand that. The jealousy thing isn't neccesairy a big ocd theme for me, but more the being mad at my partner part. I get so incredibly mad at him sometimes when he doesn't want sex, which I normally would say is totally out of proportion and completely insensitive. But I just can't help myself when I'm in my ocd mind. It's almost like I want to be mad at him and make him feel bad. And as soon as the anxiety wears off I feel really bad for thinking such things in the first place and I often apologies for overreacting, because he did nothing wrong. But just the anger is so extreme sometimes. Which is very unlike myself
Okay I understand this one for suuuuure. I’m like this about sex too. Mad and want to stay mad.
Behind the anger is a deep down fear he doesn’t want me or something I guess but it feels like just total anger like I cannot control it and don’t want to stop being mad. That’s a lot of times I think.
So my husband and I have been married for almost 10 years now. We got married young and real quick about 9 months after dating. When we got married my husband used to be a very friendly flirty person but in a harmless way. He didn’t really think of the consequences of the things he’d say he would just blurt it out lol like no filter. Anyway, sometimes he would make compliments at my sister and for some reason that made me upset. She had a boyfriend at the time, anyway fast forward a few months and I guess my sisters boyfriend and my husband were having “guy talk” which I don’t quite understand that. But my sisters boyfriend made a comment about me having nice legs and my husband made a comment back about my sister having big boobs or a nice chest and he’s a lucky guy. Fast forward a couple months later to Halloween he texted her about her Halloween costume teasing her since the stockings she was wearing looked like tan likes but at the point I was so sensitive about the boob comment that the stocking comment alarmed me. I want to mention my husband has changed a ton, he’s no longer immature lol we are in our 30s now he’s reserved and talks about our future non stop and worries for me, all the things a woman wants in a husband. I’ve been good for 4.5 years never bringing this topic up but for some reason I’m stuck in a loop that he made those comments because he wanted my sister and not me and the anxiety that comes with it is unbearable. It’s like I feel this so deeply so it must me true? I can’t tell if it’s because I’m so stuck it feels real and that it is the case and he does like my sister or I’m in denial and want someone to tell me it’s not true. I just want it all to stop because we have such beautiful memories and now I’m focused on a moment of what was immaturity. If you took the time to read this I appreciate you. I’ve asked him a thousand times if he made those comments because he desired her and he said absolutely not, in fact they always bicker and he’s always picking on her calling her boring so she’s not really his type. My mother knows about this and she thinks it was a moment of immaturity and he’s a good man.l and never noticed him being interested in my sister. My sister who was on the receiving end of this says no that’s not the case he was just a dumb ass and my mother in law says I need to get over it. But here I am stuck and I can’t get unstuck. It’s all I can think about. Is what I feel real and Is it true or is this my OCD blowing up the situation more than it really is? Thanks for your time.
Does anyone else’s OCD take things and run with them? For example, my boyfriend got annoyed with me recently and responded kind of rudely to a question I asked him. I told him that wasn’t fair and he agreed and apologized immediately. But now I keep ruminating on it that maybe this is just him revealing his true self now that we’ve been together for a while. Maybe the real him is aggressive and he’s going to snap at me in the future and I’m going to be stuck in a relationship that is unhealthy! Also I’m fearing everyone reading this won’t believe me that my relationship is good and they’ll be judging me saying it’s not OCD. Struggling right now.
I feel like i should have figured this out by now... but everyday it seems something new. My partner will do something triggering and i will question everything. I feel bad bc he realizes and sees that i am nervous. Should i tell him? I kind of already have, ive told him about my ocd, but idk if he knows what i actually go through. He always says im his perfect girl, he will not let me go, etc. Im afraid he is lying and doesnt actually feel that way, and i am also afraid that bc he is so sexually into me that it means thats all he wants... its so hard to trust him.. i also get triggered bc sometimes our conversations are minimal and idk what to say to him. Im tired all the time.. but sometimes we have great conversations and it feels natural and normal. Idk what to do. I know yesterday i sat with the uncertainty that he was lying and it helped. But everyday it just gets re triggered. Its so hard
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