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- 3y
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- 3y
Dude I get this on a SPIRITUAL level! I freak out about the stupidest things and spiral down rabbit holes about it. If it helps, he probably wasn't even thinking about her. If he's anything like my husband, that would be the only floor he could think but probably didn't even link it to his past relationship. But I would freak out too! OCD is a b!tch
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- 3y
Thank you so much for validating me and this. OCD is suuuuuuuch a bitch
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- 3y
No I honestly understand that, it makes you feel like a psycho but it's literally something you can't help! There's not anything to be ashamed of, it's just really hard to deal with sometimes I've never really spoke to my boyfriend about it so i can't even blame him when he does because he doesn't know! But that sounds so difficult, sometimes things accidentally do slip out and it's so hard when you know that they know it is a trigger but you can only do the best you can do, i definitely feel like a crazy girlfriend so often! It's so difficult to bring yourseld out of that spiral too so i really do understand
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- 3y
Oh wow nice that there are people out there that can relate. It's so weird. It's like being mad or angry is going to help anything. I almost feel like anger and sadness can be addicting, like I could choose to not overreact and just say that's fine. But I choose to be mad or sad. I sometimes even feel like I have to ignore his texts or be distant to him as a from of punishment. Which again is not a thing I would normally do. But when it's about sex I think my underlying fear is that our relationship isn't good enough, and then the fear is expressed in anger. But I hate doing this to him, because he makes such an effort to make me happy. It breaks my heart :( But that's just what ocd does. It will always find ways
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- 3y
I completely understand this, my boyfriend references his past relationships or even other girls a lot and I instantly get a wave of jealousy and feel so angry and mad about it, I really struggle to understand where the line is and what is and is not okay to feel jealous or mad about. Just whenever this happens I instantly think that there MUST be something happening there as they have crossed his mind even though he has given me absolutely no reason other than this to believe it. It gets me so confused.
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- 3y
Thank you so much for sharing. I feel less alone! I truly felt crazy
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- 3y
@RelationshipObsessed Mine never references his because he knows it’s a huge trigger for me so it makes me even madder he let that slip out or that that was on his mind. I’m like “you should be more thoughtful!” Then the shame spiral of being a crazy OCD girlfriend…
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- 3y
I can deffo understand that. The jealousy thing isn't neccesairy a big ocd theme for me, but more the being mad at my partner part. I get so incredibly mad at him sometimes when he doesn't want sex, which I normally would say is totally out of proportion and completely insensitive. But I just can't help myself when I'm in my ocd mind. It's almost like I want to be mad at him and make him feel bad. And as soon as the anxiety wears off I feel really bad for thinking such things in the first place and I often apologies for overreacting, because he did nothing wrong. But just the anger is so extreme sometimes. Which is very unlike myself
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- 3y
Okay I understand this one for suuuuure. I’m like this about sex too. Mad and want to stay mad.
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Behind the anger is a deep down fear he doesn’t want me or something I guess but it feels like just total anger like I cannot control it and don’t want to stop being mad. That’s a lot of times I think.
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- 22w
I'm 18, and been in a relationship with my man for nearly 2 years. I started living with him around 2 months ago, and all I do is think about if he's cheating. We were long distance for a year and a half of our relationship, maybe seeing eachother once every month or two. I decided to move in with him, and ever since all I can think about is if he's cheating or watching porn. When he's in another room I think he's doing something wrong, I have to check on him every ten minutes to ease my anxiety. I didn't have this problem before moving in. Granted he has talked to some girls on his phone, even having his ex on his phone (didn't do anything bad) and he is porn addicted though he is getting better for me. It's gotten so bad I want to leave him. A couple days ago I broke up with him and it absolutely broke my heart, I couldn't bare it so I gave him a month to show me he can do better, and for me to work on myself. If I'm still unhappy with us I'm going to leave. I love this boy more than anything. I'm scared to be without him, this is my first real relationship. At this point I refuse to even sleep until he is sleeping. I don't want to start over, I don't want to leave him, but I really can't take this pain it's causing me. It's all I think about. I've convinced myself so many times that he's cheating, but I know he wouldn't. I question whether it's anxiety or intuition. Maybe I just know deep down he really is cheating and I just don't want to believe it. I don't know. I don't think he would do that, but at the same time he's really into women. I hate that he looks at other girls in a sexual way, it bothers me so much, and we talk about it often, but with it being an addiction it's difficult. He has gotten a lot better since we have talked about it. He understands I have an issue and is usually happy to talk about it over and over and promise me over and over that he's not cheating. He allows me to have his phone whenever I want and everything, I have no reason to think he's cheating, but I can't get over it. It's not fair to him either. How do I deal with this? How do I stop hurting so much?
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- 16w
Hi everyone. I’m having a really hard time today in my relationship. I am just feeling so frustrated by my back-and-forth feelings about my relationship. One day I’ll feel so good, and then the next I don’t at all. I think my biggest trigger in the house is the chores that the two of us have to do in the house. I’m much more of a clean person than my boyfriend is. I’m also thinking that he has ADHD and struggles to remember when to do specific chores and I have to remind him pretty often, but he will usually do it when I ask. Today, I’m on a huge spiral of telling myself that he is never gonna be able to learn to do things on his own, he’s not gonna be able to take care of our kids in the future If we do get married, he’s not gonna be able to help take care of our house when we do have one one day, And I am just exhausted. It’s so hard fighting these thoughts all day and then I feel like I have to sit down and talk to him about chores and obviously that doesn’t go well when I’m not feeling good. Definitely a compulsion… It feels so much better when I can just relax and just let him figure things out on his own, and I can just take care of myself. I also come from a household where I was constantly criticized and controlled in certain ways, so I have that to carry too…I’ve gotten much better at doing that most of the time but today is pretty bad. It always feels a little bit worse as well when I’m on my period and feeling very hormonal as well… Can anyone please shed some light on if they’ve experienced this before and any support they might be able to offer in relation to this? Anything would be helpful and please be kind!
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- 9w
I’m gonna try to make this make sense, and any support or advice would be great. I have a beautiful girlfriend, who I’ve been dating off and on for a year. We were really rocky but got our shit figured out 4 months ago and have been strong since. I truly love this girl more than I’ve loved anyone. And I know based off the sheer amount of ocd that has come up on our relationship, that she means a lot to me. Me and her were in a friend group in 2022 and we never liked each other. However she had a sexual relationship with one of my old friends. Fast forward to now I haven’t talked to him in a long time and I don’t see it as an issue. However… I keep having this vivid flashback to him touching her some kinda way in 2022. I can’t remember exactly what happened or the details but it’s running through my head. I guess this is retroactive jealousy but it’s really almost hurting my feelings. I wish it would stop but I know ocd doesn’t work that way. I just wanna be happy with my girl and not upset at her past experiences
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