whenever i see cute videos of straight married couples together with their kid i imagine it with a girl and it feels like i want it :(

I know it feels real but I assure you it’s 100% not how you feel at all. Ocd tampers with your emotions and interests and makes you think you want something you don’t. Just let the thought do what it wants, say, “yeah, sure whatever”, and just knock it away. It helps to fake agree with the thoughts so that they leave you alone. Fighting against them just makes them more buggy.

i am really trying to ignore them and it's been working out for me a lot. the thing is ocd hasn't been bugging me nor coming in the way of my everyday life anymore, i have been having way less thoughts and anxiety and barely ruminate anymore. it's worrying me because i don't think i have ocd anymore. i haven't been officially diagnosed :( i don't think i have OCD at this point and it worries me because this means that it's all real and has always been denial :(

@Nour04 I think it’s great that you haven’t been having much anxiety! Trust me, in no way does that mean your thoughts are real. You’re just having a bit of a relapse. This is very normal for people suffering from ocd and I’m pretty sure you do have it. Your thoughts are not who you are and even though they feel very real, there is no way they will be real. Once you just accept them as thoughts, your anxiety will fade and you’ll feel back to normal!

@BlueMountain but what if i really don't have ocd???

@Nour04 Everything you’re going through is 100% ocd. I have it myself and I’ve been through the same thing as you. And trust me, it does get better!

@BlueMountain are you sure??? even if i haven't been diagnosed?

@Nour04 I’m very sure! This is very much an ocd thing to worry about!

@BlueMountain thank you so much for being so sweet and kind!!

@Nour04 You’re very welcome! I’m glad I could make you feel better in your struggle! This never is an easy thing, but we can all get through this together! Stay strong, you’re going to be just fine!

@BlueMountain thank you again!!! how are you?? if you ever need me i am here for you

@Nour04 Of course! And I’m doing well! And thank you! That’s very kind of you! How are you doing?

@BlueMountain i am doing well too i guess. if you ever need support i am always here <3