whenever i see cute videos of straight married couples together with their kid i imagine it with a girl and it feels like i want it :(

i am really trying to ignore them and it's been working out for me a lot. the thing is ocd hasn't been bugging me nor coming in the way of my everyday life anymore, i have been having way less thoughts and anxiety and barely ruminate anymore. it's worrying me because i don't think i have ocd anymore. i haven't been officially diagnosed :( i don't think i have OCD at this point and it worries me because this means that it's all real and has always been denial :(

@BlueMountain but what if i really don't have ocd???

@BlueMountain are you sure??? even if i haven't been diagnosed?

@BlueMountain thank you so much for being so sweet and kind!!

@BlueMountain thank you again!!! how are you?? if you ever need me i am here for you

@BlueMountain i am doing well too i guess. if you ever need support i am always here <3