i feel like i just like the idea of men :(

Totally relate

I can completely relate. I've never been in a relationship before and my brain attacks that.

I know :(

Me neither, and I never had any female friends, I liked looking at them and imagined a relationship with them one day, now that I talk to them I dont feel anything, it feels boring or like something is missing, thinking about dudes feels more natural and it depresses me so much :(