I keep getting constant intrusive feelings and it feels so real... I hate my life rn...

I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅

Any one else deal with this? Like from the moment they wake up to the second they fall asleep, the intrusive thoughts are there?

i think my intrusive thoughts are real. what do i do now man