heyy i'm new here so a bit of help would be appreciated so i think i have hocd. i am not diagnosed. it was horrible and unbearable up until june. after that i started getting better: way less thoughts, less anxiety and just overall less severe ocd. thoughts that used to make me spiral barely affect me. now what's kinda worrying me is that i don't think i have ocd anymore :( which makes me kinda sad because at least all those unwanted feelings were justified by ocd, now they just seem like denial. after a super long exhausting battle, i don't even know if i want to like women or not anymore. i feel like i am genuinely in denial. i feel like i have been using ocd as a cover up for my denial. now i am leading a normal life, umaffected by ocd anymore. i am just so bummed at the idea of it all not being ocd. i kinda want my anxiety and intrusive thoughts back because at least when it was shit i knew it was OCD.

I don’t know what to do anymore, this started nearly a year ago and caused so much stress and panic attacks over the thought of loosing my boyfriend. Now it just feels real and that he always liked girls and suppressed it (but like the boys i always liked in the past were real feelings they had to be and with my boyfriend i love him) but i haven’t got much anxiety now feels like i want the thoughts and that they don’t bother me even tho they used to, this seems to happen every time i get a lil better, idk just feels so true and that’s what i acc want with no stress, just a lil scared.

having so-ocd has to be the hardest thing ever, and having different sub types pop out after is even harder. i want these thoughts to stop, when i think about ending up with a man i feel like it’s the end of the world, when a sexual or romantic thought about a man pops up i feel like throwing and my stomach hurts. i don’t want to be straight or end up with a man. i know my body knows what it wants and that’s why it’s making me anxious and stressed but i just want this ocd to stop, i miss who i was before this. are there any tips on how to battle SO-OCD and be back to who you were? i was in remission for almost a month and the thoughts that did come i didn’t care for, but it’s back harder this time.

I haven't had anxiety for 1 week, I haven't had so many thoughts, but when it comes to sexuality I feel discomfort and I feel like something is pressing on my chest, it's very disturbing, and I still have attraction (false I hope), I wasn't diagnosed with hocd but I had all the symptoms, (now I don't have anxiety anymore, except when a feeling that I'm gay appears), I no longer felt that strong need to watch videos on yt or look for things that would make me feel comfortable, so somehow I managed to keep this under control, but I don't know if it's recovery or if I'm just lying to myself that I'm not gay. If anyone has any ideas, I hope they write something here