heyy i'm new here so a bit of help would be appreciated so i think i have hocd. i am not diagnosed. it was horrible and unbearable up until june. after that i started getting better: way less thoughts, less anxiety and just overall less severe ocd. thoughts that used to make me spiral barely affect me. now what's kinda worrying me is that i don't think i have ocd anymore :( which makes me kinda sad because at least all those unwanted feelings were justified by ocd, now they just seem like denial. after a super long exhausting battle, i don't even know if i want to like women or not anymore. i feel like i am genuinely in denial. i feel like i have been using ocd as a cover up for my denial. now i am leading a normal life, umaffected by ocd anymore. i am just so bummed at the idea of it all not being ocd. i kinda want my anxiety and intrusive thoughts back because at least when it was shit i knew it was OCD.

Giving up

Date posted: 4y

OCD can change, it doesn’t always look the same. The thoughts are probably going to come back and you’ll miss this time, at least that’s what happened to me. I’m sorry if this worries you. If you had months of unbearable thoughts and stuff that could all be explained by OCD chances are it probably is. You should try to get diagnosed as soon as you can.

Lilyrosalynd

Date posted: 4y

but why aren't they there now anymore???? i don't feel like this is ocd. i used to ruminate for HOURS on end, have unbearable anxiety and it was on my mind 24/7. i couldn't stop thinking about it. but why is it this way now??? it doesn't feel like ocd anymore. i can stop myself fron ruminating over thoughts and stuff but idk anymore :(

Giving up

Date posted: 4y

@Lily50 I felt the same way for a bit, I think because I was obsessing over having ocd instead of my theme. It came back once the realization and shock that it was OCD faded and I stopped over analyzing what my ocd thoughts were and I started thinking about my theme again.

Lilyrosalynd

Date posted: 4y

@Zoe i think i am obsessing over whether or not i have ocd too. i check myself for anxiety.

hii2037382

Date posted: 4y

I have HOCD/SO-OCD which are the same thing and I’ve struggle with that too I’m undiagnosed so having support from my parents is hard since they don’t believe me but ocd can shapeshift itself into many themes sensations anything basically that’s why it’s called the doubting desease everyone has different experiences take deep breaths my ocd comes and goes sometimes it feels so real sometimes it doesn’t just let it be don’t fight it it’s hard but try to

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