Woke up with a groinal but no anxiety... mind tells me I had groinals to intrusiv thoughts...

Anxiety is much better but intrusive thoughts have reared their ugly head again. Thing is they don’t scare me but they seem like they should have meaning since I’m not anxious like I used to be!

I needed to get out of bed. I got intrusive thoughts. Anxiety and ocd as soon as as i wake up. I scoooted out of bed. But intrusivr thought was of my friend and their kid then ocd ad sensiromotor ocd i worried about groinals and hip thrusts. As i scooted out of bed i think i felt a pause or hesitation but im not sure. I recall scooting off the bed but ocd hyperfocusing on my goos and groinals and hip thrusts thoughts. I anxiously reacted and said NO repeatedly as compulsions. Now im stuck trying tk figure lut did j slowly scoot off the bed and ocd was just hyperfocused on groinals? Did i involuntary hip thrust or was i checking as a compulsion so hip thrusted intentionally? Thrn ocd said was k intnetionally hip thrusting while scooting off and having intrusive thiughts and arousing over my friend and their kid but thats ego dystonic and causes me anxiety and discomfort and i kept saying NO. Was it just sensirimotr ocd. Was i hesitant and thats ehy i slowly scooted out of bed and OCD just fixates on groinals. Im stuck figuring out whyd my brain fixate on my hips and groins. Did i do anything intentionally to act on the intrusive thiughts? Why was i moving sloe kr did ocd interpret that way because of anxiety? Did i hip thrust or was it just natural movement of scooting out of bed and ocd just worrying false alarms and making me feel guilt and doubt to keep me ruminating. I know i wasnt arousing over my friend and their kid. As i scooted and had intrusivr thoughts and groinals i felt so uncomfortable and said NO repeatedly as a compulsion as i kept scooting out. Of course scooting causes a natural hip thrust motion tk scoot out and groinals occur and my anxious discomfort and cringe face and saying no was me trying tk endure it but ocd thougjts hyperfixate and make me confused snd doubt snd says “was i hip thrusting snd arousing iver intrusive thoughts? “ this is ego dystonic. And i already woke up in an anxiety soup mentally. And i think i was just hesistant and ocd hyperfixates with sensiromotor and i was just trying to get out of bed. I dont want thoughts if my friend and their kid. Indont want groinals. So why woukd i arouse over it thats not rational logical kr who i am. Short answer please advise

TW - Groinal Responses 18+ Also tmi As of the last week or two, I have no idea why or how, but the groinal responses have gotten so, so much worse... Today was so bad... And I'm still having a very hard time. Like, I don't even know if I want to say how bad it really is. It's beyond just obsessing about it; I have to try to distract myself so something doesn't actually happen from the groinal response (I'm intentionally being vague bc I don't want to say much about the situation). I'm seriously struggling... and I don't know what to do or how it can change... This is tmi too, but years ago I had another issue regarding groinal responses. And even just the thought of it made my body do something I would have thought couldn't have happened just from thinking and worrying about it happening [the thing my body did back then isn't as distressing as I'm worried about my body doing now] (and yes, I'm intentionally being vague again) My mind and body are very against me right now...