Im losing grip on myself and reality, completely forgotten who I used to be, How is this possible? Id jump with excitiement when a girl would message me, now when I talk, Nothing except intrusive thoughts even towards them. I feel very numb rn and feel far away from myself. I dont feel normal at all, I keep oversleeping anytime I get a chance. I have convinced myself completely that I was always gay and believed it too which couldve been just simple self esteem issues, like a stupid delusion. How do I undo this? Or am I actually this way, Is it actually possible that I changed or have reazlized? Im going to scream!!! Im panicking rn guys, not even anxious bc I suspect I have depression and its strong atm. I dont want to be gay :( but It feels like I already am and cant do anything about it, do I have to forget all about women, my past self of 21 years? Was none of that the actual me, what I felt etc?just not accepting it? My head dosent feel in the right space. Ughhh I need some advice please.