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Hi! I’m new to the NOCD community, but I’ve been dealing with OCD since I was 12. I’m almost 29 now, and my biggest issue is health anxiety. It’s gotten to the point where getting work done is nearly impossible because i can’t stop spiraling. I’m lucky that i work remotely, but also makes it easier to be in my own head… Asking for advice - how do you all deal with the intense anxiety and are able to make it through a 9-5 work day? Any suggestions on how I can actually be productive? Thank you!

I don't know if this is super OCD related, but it's just there are so many things I want to do in life, but I'm scared. I want to apply for this restaurant waitress job near me, but I'm worried I'd be terrible at it as I have no experience and I'm worried they wouldn't train me properly. What if someone has an allergy and I accidentally serve them the wrong food and they have a severe allergic reaction and something awful happens and then I'm sued or go to prison? It feels like there's so many things holding me back. What if I give someone a drink but a piece of my hair falls in? It just feels like I'm never going to be able to do anything. I've never tried anything, never properly stepped out of my comfort zone, never had any kind of job. So I'm so nervous to try anything in life because there are so many things that could go wrong.

I posted the other day about my subtype of staring ocd but I’m supposed to start a new job next week. I work in wellness/beauty and will be seeing people half naked. It doesn’t trigger me as I’m treating clients but only when I’m not supposed to be looking (like normal interactions). It happens when people wear very revealing clothes or are super curvy and my eye goes to that area. It also happens when people are adjusting themselves and my eye goes to their hands. It’s very embarrassing and I quit my last job because of this and I don’t want to make more people feel uncomfortable. It left me very depressed and hopeless. It’s such a frustrating type of ocd to deal with because it impacts me financially and socially. I just want to feel okay. Anyways, I’m writing this because I’m wondering if I should share with my new employer about this issue so I don’t weird anyone out or keep it to myself? I’m not sure what to do. I need money as I have a mortgage and two kids and would like to help my husband. I’m currently on Zoloft 50mg, have done therapy but this is such a hard type to treat as it’s not the cleaning type. I know I’m not supposed to ask for advice about what to do but I need to know so I can make a decision and not get cold feet.