It feels like moving in with my boyfriend was the worst thing for me and my ocd. I constantly feel like it made me open my eyes to my reality like I really am gay or that I don’t want to really be with him. This move has made my HOCD/ROCD way worse, like I’m coming to all these realizations but am having trouble accepting it for myself and taking action.

I know it’s scary, but don’t try to fight off these thoughts and feelings you’re having. This has happened to a lot of people and I can tell you that your thoughts do not define you. Just by having the thoughts, not fighting them, and letting them go, you will see that everything is going to be alright! I hope you and your boyfriend have a wonderful life together!

Thank you, I really hope so too! It’s scary because it feels like all my worst fears are coming true. I have started really going at my ERP exercises again and waiting to switch therapists to get the ball rolling again on my recovery. I’m trying to just sit with the thoughts and let them be and when I do that even tougher ones come up