Okay... now I can’t tell if my ocd has latched to my friend bc now it feels like I’m attracted to her body and it’s making me feel weird and like my abuser bc it feels like I’m lying to myself like he was with me bc he did towards me and making me feel sensations and now I have I have fear what if I start feeling it’s okay to think the things he thought about me.? And I say them to a child or if they develop :( I’m scared but I just wanted to type this out here bc it makes me feel better but don’t give me reassurance 😭 so yeah phew That was hard