Okay... now I can’t tell if my ocd has latched to my friend bc now it feels like I’m attracted to her body and it’s making me feel weird and like my abuser bc it feels like I’m lying to myself like he was with me bc he did towards me and making me feel sensations and now I have I have fear what if I start feeling it’s okay to think the things he thought about me.? And I say them to a child or if they develop :( I’m scared but I just wanted to type this out here bc it makes me feel better but don’t give me reassurance 😭 so yeah phew That was hard

Thank you so much for this

Hmmm

@kathernyr No 😭😅

@Robert132 Well that concern has been there just not as strong but now it was making me think more deeper into it or it was more like I had to pay attention to that, but you are right in some way I’m trying not to worry as much as about the other thoughts I had but it still feels kinda real just dealing with it still. And well I’m not sure bc last time I went to a therapist about my trauma I tried to tell her about my intrusive thoughts and she was like “oh you’re not gonna do that” and then I tried to tell her that I may have ocd bc I’ve been having the thoughts for a while but she like didn’t think that.? Bc she said ocd is an obsession, which I have been obsessing about 😑 but then said that people with ptsd also have intrusive thoughts and that there’s a difference but I just stopped seeing her😭 since

@Robert132 I’m not sure now though bc it’s kinda pricey to have both.. and I don’t want to annoy my mom that I want to try therapy again.. and idk if I can find a therapist who I can tell my Trauma to and understand my intrusive thoughts