sometimes i keep myself from saying stuff like on here because i am scared i sound gay in denial

no but literally i feel like some stuff just SCREAM denial and comphet and gay. and even if people didn't say so i feel that way

@BlueMountain but i have barely been having thoughts and my ocd has been SUPER mild. is that even ocd???

@BlueMountain thank you so much for this i needed it!

before this i used to joke about for example kissing girls and stuff. like i would jokingly say "yeah i would kiss her" but now my mind says it and it feels genuine. also why would i say that before if i didn't really want it???