sometimes i keep myself from saying stuff like on here because i am scared i sound gay in denial

Just say it I could help I feel similar

before this i used to joke about for example kissing girls and stuff. like i would jokingly say "yeah i would kiss her" but now my mind says it and it feels genuine. also why would i say that before if i didn't really want it???

There’s nothing that you could say that would possibly lead to that. This is a common thing with ocd. I swear no one will tell you your thoughts are true or that you sound gay. This is a safe place and everyone here supports you and has your back!

no but literally i feel like some stuff just SCREAM denial and comphet and gay. and even if people didn't say so i feel that way

@Nour04 Your ocd is only making you think that. But I assure you, your ocd is only bullying you into making you believe you’re someone you’re not. Just have whatever thought it gives you and try to let it go. It’s hard, but it’ll get easier every time!

@BlueMountain but i have barely been having thoughts and my ocd has been SUPER mild. is that even ocd???

@Nour04 Yes, it is. That’s awesome that your ocd has been mild, but that doesn’t mean that everything you think now is automatically real.

@BlueMountain thank you so much for this i needed it!