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I was looking at stories of two seemingly adult women my age and above... only to learn that in the game the story is based off from, one of the women was 15... I was triggered but I didn’t react to it at first... but since I didn’t react, it’s making me think I’m a pedo because of it... I DONT WANT TO BE A PEDO ST ALL!!!! I WAS JUST LOOKING AT A STORY BETWEEN TWO WOMEN BEING SEXUAL!!!!! I ASSUMED THEY WERE 18 BECAUSE THE SITE HAD SAID THAT ONLY CHARACTERS WHO WERE 18 COULD BE ON THE SITE!!!!
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@BlueMountain But I had read the story several times in the past, and since the site says that all characters need to be 18+, I thougjt the woman was 18+ too...
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@BlueMountain I get it’s anime women and therefore I shouldn’t be worried, but it’s still triggering because I only want to be with women my age and above and have POCD and real event OCD from viewing hentai in the past without knowing what the content was or represented... the videos had millions of views and it was on a public site so I thought it was okay to watch...
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@BlueMountain I just posted again...
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