I have a question. When I was younger (like, maybe 10, 11, 12) I remember one night looking at a video of lesbians kissing (I mean y’all I spelled it lezbian that’s how young I was) i remember having a groinal response. I’m pretty sure that that day in school, someone mentioned gay and lesbian people and I had no clue what that was. So I think that’s why I looked it up. I never watched it again after that night, had never had any sexual questioning, and knew I was heterosexual. I was in LOVE with so many fictional male characters and have been in a serious relationship with my boyfriend for almost 6 years next month. Fast forward to now, I am suffering with HOCD. And my mind is telling me that me watching that video forever ago was actually me being a lesbian and I just didn’t realize it. Does anyone know the correlation between these two things? Not really reassurance seeking, mostly seeking information because I genuinely do not know if watching lesbians making out once as a kid means I was a lesbian, just didn’t know it. Thanks.

It definitely doesn't make you a lesbian. We all see things we don't want to have seen and have physiological responses we can't control. Nothing about the situation means you are a lesbian, it means you were a curious kid who learned something and saw something they didn't intend to.

Im currently having this issues. For years ive watched lesbian when i am straight and only been in straight relationships and love male characters etc….its confusing and hurtful to ones self. But i know if you believe that you are straight then keep fighting for that , and to be with ur bf for 6 years and loving him, that proves right there that you are straight.

Watching lesbian adult content is one of the most normal things women do! I don’t know why but I have a friend (she is a girl) and her favorite adult videoes is lesbian, and she is 100% straight. I also watched lesbian kissing videoes, A LOT when I was younger and enjoyed it a lot. It makes me so anxious to think about, but I hope it wasn’t a sign..

^I feel like this is actually so much more normal than ppl think. And I feel like that has a lot to do with the porn industry itself..most of it is geared towards cis het men--so tbh I feel like watching lesbian porn is more enjoyable since it's more realistic. But I don't think that means anything past that. But I understand it's the uncertainty that's hardest to deal with, but it is necessary.

@Nat <3 *accept