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It definitely doesn't make you a lesbian. We all see things we don't want to have seen and have physiological responses we can't control. Nothing about the situation means you are a lesbian, it means you were a curious kid who learned something and saw something they didn't intend to.
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Watching lesbian adult content is one of the most normal things women do! I don’t know why but I have a friend (she is a girl) and her favorite adult videoes is lesbian, and she is 100% straight. I also watched lesbian kissing videoes, A LOT when I was younger and enjoyed it a lot. It makes me so anxious to think about, but I hope it wasn’t a sign..
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^I feel like this is actually so much more normal than ppl think. And I feel like that has a lot to do with the porn industry itself..most of it is geared towards cis het men--so tbh I feel like watching lesbian porn is more enjoyable since it's more realistic. But I don't think that means anything past that. But I understand it's the uncertainty that's hardest to deal with, but it is necessary.
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@Nat <3 *accept
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I've also hears that watching lesbian porn is very common among straight women which is why I worry now that I am not straight because I never was into lesbian porn 🤦♀️ but I get triggered a lot from my past as well, I admired a lot of female celebrities or older women/girls in my environment, I wanted to be like them and for them to like me. I also wrote in my diary when I was 12 that I wasn't sure if I liked boys or girls which today makes me feel devastated as it feels like literal proof that I must have always been gay ...
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@girlwithocd.. Hi 🙂 I don’t want to disturb you, but I think we have similar experiences. Could we talk? I am struggling with so-ocd so much and I have nobody to talk about it 😞
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Im a 21 year old female in a straight relationship with the best guy a girl could ever ask for. About 2 months ago, I went to get coffee with a friend and as I dropped her off, I got a “weird” vibe from her and the look she gave me which lead to the thought of “should I kiss her”….Ive never had a thought like that before and I never have ever wanted to kiss another girl. I have also never had a desire to be with another girl (sexually or romantically). Now though, I have had one other experience of being with a different friend going to get lunch and it felt weird. Ever since then I have been on google non stop with hundreds of different searches, questioning if im lying to myself of my boyfriend, wondering about my past relationships even though Ive only dated boys, been attracted to boys, crushed on boys, etc… boy crazy! Reading on other forums has been a big thing too or doing quizzes. I believe its SO-OCD but im so scared that what if its not. I am in therapy and actually had two weeks of not even thinking about it or googling it until yesterday. I dont know what to do.
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Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
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