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It definitely doesn't make you a lesbian. We all see things we don't want to have seen and have physiological responses we can't control. Nothing about the situation means you are a lesbian, it means you were a curious kid who learned something and saw something they didn't intend to.
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Watching lesbian adult content is one of the most normal things women do! I don’t know why but I have a friend (she is a girl) and her favorite adult videoes is lesbian, and she is 100% straight. I also watched lesbian kissing videoes, A LOT when I was younger and enjoyed it a lot. It makes me so anxious to think about, but I hope it wasn’t a sign..
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^I feel like this is actually so much more normal than ppl think. And I feel like that has a lot to do with the porn industry itself..most of it is geared towards cis het men--so tbh I feel like watching lesbian porn is more enjoyable since it's more realistic. But I don't think that means anything past that. But I understand it's the uncertainty that's hardest to deal with, but it is necessary.
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@Nat <3 *accept
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I've also hears that watching lesbian porn is very common among straight women which is why I worry now that I am not straight because I never was into lesbian porn 🤦♀️ but I get triggered a lot from my past as well, I admired a lot of female celebrities or older women/girls in my environment, I wanted to be like them and for them to like me. I also wrote in my diary when I was 12 that I wasn't sure if I liked boys or girls which today makes me feel devastated as it feels like literal proof that I must have always been gay ...
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@girlwithocd.. Hi 🙂 I don’t want to disturb you, but I think we have similar experiences. Could we talk? I am struggling with so-ocd so much and I have nobody to talk about it 😞
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I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
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As I’ve posted before, my friends has developed TOUGH hocd and has hit rock bottom :// She told me to ask y’all here if any of you have had a similar experience NOT reassurance (she doesn’t have NOCD). “Hi NOCD community. When I was like 5 I had this distant female cousin whom I played with and grew up. She had super short hair like a boy, but we low key had same interests in toys/tv series etc. and then at THAT age I got a very weird though which said: do you like her? And I remember getting a lot of anxiety and my stomach hurting cause why tf would I have that kind of thought about my female cousin? I remember ruminating about it the whole day, and the next day that thought disappeared and I never had that thought again. We grew up and obviously she’s my family like my sister. But now that I have HOCD, I keep thinking about that memory and I have so much anxiety about it and cry often about it. While growing up I’ve only had crushes on tons of boys at school etc. has anyone had a similar experience?” Thanks for reading if u did! We need support 😭🙏🏻
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As I’ve posted before, my friends has developed TOUGH hocd and has hit rock bottom :// She told me to ask y’all here if any of you have had a similar experience NOT reassurance (she doesn’t have NOCD). “Hi NOCD community. When I was like 5 I had this distant female cousin whom I played with and grew up. She had super short hair like a boy, but we low key had same interests in toys/tv series etc. and then at THAT age I got a very weird though which said: do you like her? And I remember getting a lot of anxiety and my stomach hurting cause why tf would I have that kind of thought about my female cousin? I remember ruminating about it the whole day, and the next day that thought disappeared and I never had that thought again. We grew up and obviously she’s my family like my sister. But now that I have HOCD, I keep thinking about that memory and I have so much anxiety about it and cry often about it. While growing up I’ve only had crushes on tons of boys at school etc. has anyone had a similar experience?” Thanks for reading if u did! We need support 😭🙏🏻
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