Why am I not feeling anything towards the opposite sex? Absolutely nothing. Even sexual attraction is nearly gone. I dont feel normal. Ive convinced myself too much, now when I check out women, I get thoughts/feelings that Im gay and I will never get her or get a gf. This makes me feel less manly which takes a bigger toll on my self esteem Or when I look at a woman and imagine myself with her, I get a flashing image of me leaving her bc I like men more. This makes me sick and not good. Like I said Ive ruminated too much and believed my thoughts and proof that It gave me and now Im in this messy situation. Idk what to do. I want to feel real and normal again. Why does It also feel like time is passing by in the blink of an eye and Im not able to experience any of it fully. I hate it, theres no way Im actually gay right? Wth Im worried that I am though. Im stuck on this phrase" Im just gay" : ((((( Please give me some advice. Is this still ocd?

Intuition and intrusive love, you’re afraid you don’t love woman therefor it’s intrusive there for it’s ocd. If you’re questioning it, it’s ocd and not true if it’s intuition you’ll know

This is kind of triggering, Im not in a state of mind to judge my thoughts/feelings properly. Ive had gut feelings aka intuition that I "like" dudes too.

@Imaan7 But you’re probably comparing that gut feeling to the one you’ve had to girls. I deal with social anxiety as well and I question my social anxiety symptoms as proof I’m gay or proof I’m straight when I’m just genuinely socially awkward. That’s why I’ve been desperate and actually making moves on girls I would’ve never done in the past to see if I feel any different than when talking to my guy friends. Usually I’m just more calm and warm inside when facing girls in general and when it’s with girls I like I lose my marbles and start stuttering and eventually I run away from conversation. What I know for a fact is that the two things I feel are different, for men it’s more fear based, I look at a dude and I question myself while I look at a girl and I will be entranced for a moment and then I’ll do a compulsion “surely this means I’m straight.”

@NihonWarrior516 Thats pretty much how I felt before ocd when talking to girls or thinking about talking to them. I had a super low self esteem, inferiority complex and confidence. I always thought It was a poor self esteem issue which Is why I cant get a gf ir be comfortable around them but thats the proof that ocd gave me for me being gay and I believed It. Im just worried that It was actual proof and not false. And worried that what I feel now for guys regardless of it being fear/anxiety based is just real attraction. And its like Ive started to believe It too on some level.

OCD can make you lose sexual attraction temporarily. Like if you're really anxious and have an OCD flare up you're too anxious to feel sexually attracted if that makes sense?