Intuition and intrusive love, you’re afraid you don’t love woman therefor it’s intrusive there for it’s ocd. If you’re questioning it, it’s ocd and not true if it’s intuition you’ll know
This is kind of triggering, Im not in a state of mind to judge my thoughts/feelings properly. Ive had gut feelings aka intuition that I "like" dudes too.
@Imaan7 But you’re probably comparing that gut feeling to the one you’ve had to girls. I deal with social anxiety as well and I question my social anxiety symptoms as proof I’m gay or proof I’m straight when I’m just genuinely socially awkward. That’s why I’ve been desperate and actually making moves on girls I would’ve never done in the past to see if I feel any different than when talking to my guy friends. Usually I’m just more calm and warm inside when facing girls in general and when it’s with girls I like I lose my marbles and start stuttering and eventually I run away from conversation. What I know for a fact is that the two things I feel are different, for men it’s more fear based, I look at a dude and I question myself while I look at a girl and I will be entranced for a moment and then I’ll do a compulsion “surely this means I’m straight.”
@NihonWarrior516 Thats pretty much how I felt before ocd when talking to girls or thinking about talking to them. I had a super low self esteem, inferiority complex and confidence. I always thought It was a poor self esteem issue which Is why I cant get a gf ir be comfortable around them but thats the proof that ocd gave me for me being gay and I believed It. Im just worried that It was actual proof and not false. And worried that what I feel now for guys regardless of it being fear/anxiety based is just real attraction. And its like Ive started to believe It too on some level.
OCD can make you lose sexual attraction temporarily. Like if you're really anxious and have an OCD flare up you're too anxious to feel sexually attracted if that makes sense?
Even when Im not anxious I feel nothing, Ive talked myself into It too much or something and got confused. I dont even know what my attraction towards girls Is supposed to feel like. It feels like what I feel towards same sex is real smfh