If all goes well ( my anxiety is telling me not to get too excited because something bad will happen) I see my long distance boyfriend tomorrow after 10 very long months apart. Needless to say I am TERRIFIED but also there’s nothing in this world I want more. I’ve missed him so much and I’m so ready to just be in his presence again. I’m scared about my soocd and rocd thoughts like what if I don’t love him what if I realize I’m gay etc but I’m going to try my hardest to not let them interfere with our reunion. I love my boy, that’s all that matters. I’ve been holding in so much and going through so much fear since he left and I’m finally going to have that little piece of my heart back. I haven’t been around anyone romantically in almost a year and the thought seems so daunting/terrifying but I remember when he was here being close to him felt so natural ( I think, my thoughts are fuzzy now ) that I hope it’s like that again. I just want tomorrow to go well, please wish me luck!!