How does one dream about stabbing your wife turn in to the abundant of intrusive thoughts that I’ve had about harm towards her and my son?!?!

I’m not as afraid of knives as I once was. I’m just afraid of the thoughts now more than anything at times. Some days are better than others but this morning has been rough. My ocd likes to target that my wife has done and gives me intrusive thoughts about harming her because of what she did. I don’t get it at all because I have no desire to do these things!

Thank you for sharing this! SSRI's typically don't work for me long term. They work great for a couple months, but then they crap out on me. Even upping the dose doesn't help. My doctor suggested taking a B complex vitamin every day for my depression. I definitely notice a difference when I don't take it. I also take vitamin D which has really helped as well. I've read through that its best not to take any type of medication or supplement when doing ERP. So you feel the full effect of the anxiety.

Thank you. This is the worst thing ever that’s for sure.

Why would you re-asure the man I know you mean good but this is not the way.

@kevin279 My ocd specialist has told me thoughts are just thoughts as well.

@kevin279 I'm not reassuring jim of anything. I'm just sharing my experience. Theres a difference.

@Dre83 Listen I've been in your shoes, I overcame Harm ocd. And let me tell you no explanation or reassurance will help you. You need to do the exposure and response prevention it's the only way to convince yourself that you wouldn't do it. My friend I know it feels like jumping out of a plane not knowing if you have on the parachute, but you need to be willing to take the risk. I promise that the thoughts will not go away but I also promise that you will laugh at them when you overcome this they will no longer bother you and you'll just be like yeah ok because you know they're just stupid thoughts, but don't take my word for it....expose yourself.

@kevin279 That is very true. I start ERP today.

@kevin279 So by overcoming you are saying the thoughts don’t go away correct? Do you still do erp every day or just when you’re having an off day?

@kevin279 My problem is that I know exposure is what needs to be done, but then I get false memories or doubts about the exposure and it makes me feel like I've put people in danger, when I know I haven't, but there still is that Doubt and I start obsessing about the exposure. Does that make sense?

@tascher1 Yeah that does and I’m sorry

@tascher1 I had it worse, I won't go into details about my experiance with hocd so I don't trigger anybody. But I can assure you the more you do your compulsions the more crazier the thoughts become and the more you start to believe them. The treatment is the same all across the board, no matter what the thought is, but there's a difference between being exposed and doing and exposure. You need to make sure you're doing it correctly in order for it to work.

@Dre83 Yes I'm currently doing Erp but not for hocd I'm dealing with Rocd at the moment and this is really hard for me right now. But I'm sure you're asking about hocd and as far as that goes no I am not because I don't need it anymore. Do the harm thoughts disappear? The answer is no because I'm human and everybody on this planet has loony wacky harm thoughts. But I can assure it gets better each time you do ERP because you realize you didn't do anything the thoughts were there and yet you didn't do it. And as you continue to do ERP you realize ah man these thoughts are stupid.

@kevin279 Thanks bro I appreciate it! Glad you overcame hocd and I hope you overcome rocd!

@Dre83 Likewise my friend keep your chin up, I know it Will push you to your limits but if you keep going I promise there's light at the end of the tunnel.

Did your general practitioner do this or you psychiatrist?

Yeah I don’t like those medications none of them I don’t trust them lol