Anytime I see a good looking guy whos gay, besides getting intrusive thoughts ( If thats even what they are I dont know) it feels like If this guy can be gay, so can I??? Its like I get a comfortable feeling that I could come out easily if someone else I knew was gay too ir rather Id feel alot safer in a way. Example: You know how if you want to go on a trip or something and your parents say no but you tell them your close friend has also gone to that place and since they trust this friend they change their mind and let you go. Its like that. It feels like all I need a little nudge or a small incident and Ill realize/accept that Im just gay. *I dont really care or afraid of coming out but I dont want to be gay(I think), I want to like girls, simplely romantically and sexually. I have no clue why this thought or feeling pops up but this just makes me think I probably am gay smh. I dont think any hocder will be able to relate to this.

reedchipper

261d ago

i think you’ve got a underlying stereotype that homosexual people aren’t generally attractive. i used to have this EXACT same thought back when i had SOOCD until i went “?? this is so silly”

Imaan7

261d ago

Woah I think you might be right here but even If I do pre ocd I didnt really care about a good looking gay guy or bad. I didnt think much?( Or so I remember). But why does It feel like Itlll be safer to come out or whatever the feeling I get? Or if a small same sex incident happened Id realize It that this is all just true. Ugh it feels like Im so close to becoming gay or realizing fully. This thought pops up when I see a good looking guys that I suspect could be gay or are.