it's not a happy post :(
@Nour04 omg do you think i am gay????
@Nour04 Hi again. Sorry for the delay. What you’re experiencing is called desensitization. You habituate with the thoughts after constantly exposing yourself to them. It happened to me. Although I’ll get a few thoughts throughout the day, I won’t get hooked by them because, as you stated, the lack of anxiety. But I must admit I did often ruminate without the anxiety during recovery. Now I’m just triggered by outside situations, sometimes, but seldomly nonetheless. Wish you the best.
@Intrusive Thots ow thanktyiu so much!!!
Sometimes our brain just numbs us out due to self defense, this could just your brain getting used to the thought and not focusing on the obsession as much anymore.
it's like the thoughts don't even bother me anymore. i could actually reply to my mind with "maybe i am maybe i am not i don't care" and can move on and not panic nor ruminate
my sleep schedule has been like shit i am barely getting any sleep, so it's like i am too sleepy and too tired to even bother in engaging with the thoughts. it's too tiring and i have 0 energy to do so
Yea I understand
does it make sense or is it an over complication of stuff so i could justify my denial with hocd?