Im at a crossroads and theres a couple things I really need to ask and get advice and opinions on from anyone. 1- Should I try do self help and try my best to tackle ocd( If I even have it). But I feel like its too late to do that, My brains a hot mess, even towards things outside of ocd.(self esteem, social anxiety etc). My life has crippled since this started. 2- My family is very conventional and old fashioned, If I did open up to them they would get scared especially my mom. She would probably tell me to do stop being on my phone too much, wake up early, exercise and all the generic things that one is supposed to do to feel healthy and I understand where she is coming from. But I feel like Im not mentally stable. Am I just self victmizing myself by thinking this? I could try to do all this but the anxiety and thoughts are unbearable, I struggle to get out of the bed almost every day and see su*cide as the only option to be free but again I could try and give it a shot see what happens. Ive had ocd(I think) for 1.5 years 3- Even If I decided to do therapy, I think language barrier will be my biggest issue. Im not a native english speaker but I can speak well enough to get by and live in the Us and I just found a ocd center near me too. But when It comes to explaining, describing and articulating thoughts and feelings, I fall short, I run out of words. Im afraid I wont be able to connect to the therapist at all and itd all be just a waste and awkward. I really dont think I can become normal again without any outside help. I really dont know what to do then on top of all this, I dont even know If I actually have ocd or not. I dont think I do but Im not sure. I had most symptoms of It at first (I think)but idk anymore. I would really appreciate any opinions.

Rosegirl1212

Date posted: 4y

1. It is NEVER too late to seek help or try to help yourself, I know from personal experience that you can just feel so far from normal that you never will again but it is never too late. Think of mental health like physical health, if someone was super unhealthy any kind of improvement would be a step in the right direction and the same goes for mental health 2. Maybe start by telling your family that you’re struggling and would like to seek outside help from like a therapist and if they ask what your struggling with maybe just say you’re in a bad place mentally and could maybe talk to them about it once you can put the right words to your feelings - also sometimes exercise and a healthy diet can help! 3. Maybe see if they have anyone at the center who speaks your native language or if they could get you a translator All in all please don’t give up I know it seems like this has taken over your life but hang in there it does get better! Also please take all of my opinions with a grain of salt I’m no professional this is all just from personal experience lol 🤍

Imaan7

Date posted: 4y

Thank you replying! I dont really need a translator since I can talk fluently but its obviously not like someone who was born in America. This will sound really weird but the intrusive thoughts/feelings in my head occur in english since I converse in it all the time. But when I try to say them in my native language they sound hella weird and dont make too much sense. And I cant even bring myself to say them in my tongue. Sometimes I feels like I have 2 personalities due to this. Even If I could get a translator, It would be all over the place to get therapy properly. Me telling him the thoughts then him telling the therapist... It sounds too messy. I put myself In such a bad situation, I dont think I can become normal again.

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I can so relate. But I do a lot of reading about ocd and the fact that you’re not sure you have it I believe is a sure sign you do. Definitely get therapy. God bless.

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